Thorned Rose // chae hyungwon (#31)

Thirty-six

Hyungwon

How do I act normal in front of a girl that I have feelings for? That is one question that I have been asking myself ever since I realized that I have fallen for someone that I shouldn't have and she will not be happy that I have feelings for her, and she must never know that I have feelings for her.

I have tried telling myself that it is just a period of me having a crush on Minatozaki Sana and it would go away very soon, as soon as I see her worst side of her. I heard that most boys would get turned off seeing the most disgusting thing their crush does, it is a 99% accuracy and I have seen people do it in real life.

I have observed Minatozaki Sana doing the most disgusting thing for the past week and nothing has made me turn off looking at her, I just think that she is a weirdo and I realized that I am smiling most of the time when I look at her and that is not normal at all. I don't find her disgusting at all that I like her even more and that is not acceptable.

But she is not interested in pursuing romance, she has just started to live her new life as Woo Yiwon and she has a lot of things that she wants to do as Woo Yiwon and I am not included in her plans, she is ready to explore the world in a new identity and I am not even close to what she wants to know about. She knows that I am a weirdo to her and she doesn't like me, if she likes me, she wouldn't be so comfortable around me.

She just treats me like a friend and a roommate, nothing but a friend and a roommate, that is what she thinks that I am to her. And some people are trying to get her heart as well, for one instance it would be Lee Minhyuk who is famous for dating all the new waitresses and then dumping them when he is done playing with them. I have told Sana that he is not the guy that she should date and she would be miserable if she ends up dating him and it took me nearly a day to convince her not to go out on a date with him, she just doesn't trust me at all.

I heard the sound of the passcode being punched in and I immediately got to the kitchen, looking for something to do so that I would look busier in front of the two roommates. It would be better than me just thinking hard about how Sana would react if I told her that I have feelings for her, that is something that I would never do and I will move to a foreign country if she rejects me.

"We are back from work!" Yoo Kihyun says in a singsong voice, and Sana is walking into the kitchen when she suddenly stops and stares hard at me. "What are you doing with that frying pan?"

I looked at my hand that is currently holding the frying pan and I am hugging as if it is my toy, why did I even decide that it is the best thing to hold onto to look more natural? I immediately put it down and I laughed awkwardly. "I am just doing exercises with it." Now I just sound like I need to get admitted into a mental hospital right away...

"What did you even cook for us? You should have a lot of time to think since you have a whole day off and you have the entire day to think of what you want to cook for us." Yoo Kihyun looks over at the food that I have cooked for tonight, I have just gone to the grocery earlier and I picked out a few things that we have never cooked before.

"These are all Japanese food, I thought that you didn't like cooking Japanese food because it is not up to your taste buds." Sana pointed it out and I gulped my saliva down nervously. "Then why did you cook a whole feast of it like it is your favourite cuisine?"

"I just didn't like it that time because it is not me who cooked it, it is you who cooked those omelettes and I can do a better job and I am going to make you think that I am better at cooking Japanese food," I told her, now I seem like a childish and immature guy who doesn't like to let go of grudges. How is she even going to like me?

She rolled her eyes. "Fine, you just like to make fun of me." She turns towards Yoo Kihyun. "Let's just shut up during the entire meal, I am tired from work and I don't want you to disturb me for the rest of the night." She said and that made me not want to say anything much and I mostly kept to myself the entire time during dinner.

Yoo Kihyun was the one who cleared up the dishes and I was about to do that since it is part of my job to clean up whatever I have cooked but Sana pulls me, saying that she has something to say to me. Is she going to say that I am an annoying bastard and she would dislike everything that I do?

I followed her to the nearby park where the scenery is extremely beautiful and she sat down at one of the benches, she prompted me to sit down next to me and I sat down cautiously, afraid that she might just beat me up right here. "You know that I was annoyed at what you have done today, and the food that you have cooked tonight."

"Are you going to say that you won't ever like me doing things for you and you would want me to disappear from your life? I can do that if you want me to." I told her.

"If you are going to protect me, make sure to do that till the end and don't give up on me." She said and she comes closer to me, giving me a huge shock when I realize that she is kissing me on the lips.