I was growing more confused as the notes left my earphones and traveled through my mind. This is not Dream's music. This is not something he listens to. This is something not... not something i would expect.
I can feel you lying there all on your own
We got here the hard way
Does he lay alone, thinking about someone too? Does he wonder? Does he think about them like i think about him?
So, high above
I feel it coming down
Does he feel like falling? Does it make him feel like this? Is he ready to fall? Are they waiting for him at the bottom or is he going down first?
I can't save us
My Atlantis, we fall
We've built this town on shaky ground
Is he scared of falling? Is he scared of everything that's already going wrong?
Maybe I'm not built for love
If I knew that I could reach you, I would go
Is he scared of what could possibly happen if he could touch them? Does he wonder about how different everything would be if he could look at them and see the truth? Does he want to reach them, has he tried?
In my heart and in my head
Tell me why this has to end
Does he want it to end? Does he want it gone like me, but at the same time he knows that without it he's close to nothing? Are they everything he wants, are they everything he's been looking for, everything he's ever tried to find?
My Atlantis, oh no
We've built it up to pull it down
Does he want to pull it down? Is he trying to pull away? Should I pull away? Does he want them close, is this the part where i step away?
I can't save us
My Atlantis, we fall
Is he falling?
My god, he is falling.
Dream's POV
Where the fuck is he? Is he ok? Is he alright? What is he doing?
"Dream i think George is not coming back."
Sapnap was probably right and that just made me more worried. He isn't sleeping and he was thinking last night so much that he had to call Sapnap. He was late this morning and now he is just... gone.
"I think i'm gonna call him, he usually doesn't just disappear."
"Ok. Come back though, Karl left so you are my only chance of getting more views."
He said laughing and i let myself laugh too, but that didn't make all the worry go away, so i left the call and started calling George.
He didn't pick up. So i called again. And again.
"Dream?"
"George?? Are you ok? I'm calling you like fifth time, what happened? You just disappeared."
"Yea. I had something to do."
"And what was that?"
"It's a secret."
"Secret? Since when are we keeping secrets?"
"Do you mind?"
"You having secrets? Yes i do."
Isn't it unfair how my secrets could end everything and i still don't like him keeping his?
"Why?"
"I don't know. I just don't like it. You have something to hide?"
"I have a lot of things to hide Dream."
"Like what?"
"And you think i would just tell you like that?"
"Maybe you could?"
He let out a laugh and the echo made me realise he was in a bathroom.
"Let's start with something easy, why are you in the bathroom?"
"That's not an easy question."
"It's not?"
"No. I was panicking and i needed a place to go. That's all i'm telling you."
He was panicking. He was panicking and i didn't know, i didn't do anything about it and he didn't tell me.
"About what?"
"Dream do you even listen to me?"
"Sometimes."
He let out a breath that mixed together with a little laugh and i could imagine him sitting on the bathroom floor, probably shaking hands, maybe crying. He was breathing really heavily and the silence was making the sound of running water more clear.
"What are you doing?"
"Listening."
"To what?"
"Your voice. You are breathing loudly. I can hear your heartbeat. Or maybe that is your leg. You bounce it all the time. I can hear my heartbeat. My hands are shaking so i can hear my bracelets. There is running water."
"why?"
"It's calming isn't it? I sometimes do that, i fill up the bathtub because water sounds like home. And then i lay in it because it makes me come back down to earth. I do that when Sapnap's voice can't do it."
"Sapnap's voice makes you calm?"
"It brings comfort."
"What does my voice do?"
It was quiet. He was breathing again and water sounded louder. It felt a little like i have asked too much. Like he didn't want me to know. Do i want to know? Is it nothing? Does Sapnap mean something i could never? Is it Sapnap?
"It throws me out of the world."
"Do I hurt you? Does it make you fall?"
"You do. It doesn't feel like falling, it feels like flying but i know it's not true. You don't hurt me, the things you say do. But i don't mind."
"I'm sorry."
I don't know why my voice couldn't make a sound and i wasn't sure if he could hear whispers through the phone but i could only hope.
"It's fine, i like it."
"Why?"
"Because something about it feels comforting. Maybe even more than Sapnap's voice or cold bathtubs. Something about you, Dream, just does things."
"What?"
It was silent. Too silent. So close and now he is just silent. Nothing.
"You ask too many questions."
"Please. What do i do? What makes you think? What does Sapnap's voice have that makes you calm? I want that."
"You can't have something that's not for you Dream. Neither can i, so i think i should go."
"Wait no, George, wait! Tell me please, something, anything"
"Talk to you tomorrow?"
"George, talk to me. Please."
"Tomorrow it is."
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Atlantis // DNF
Fanfiction"Which one would be you?" George asks after a moment of silence. "I'm not sure. I think I would be Poseidon." "Who is that?" "I guess you'll have to keep reading." "Who would be I?" Cleito. You would be Cleito.
