Reckless Minds

Hope

I walk into our room. She lays there, like she's been doing for the past week, just staring. This time she stares at the ultrasound we got the morning we found out that Elena had 2 inside of her. I sit on the edge of the bed.

"Hey." She doesn't move.

"Baby, please look at me." Her brown eyes shift and she flips around. I nudge some blood at her lips and she drinks a little. I hate seeing her like this. Her eyes are dead, lifeless, and it's killing me. After she's done, I take the ultrasound from her hands.

"What-"

"Elena, this isn't helping you. I want to help you. I love you so much." She stares up at me.

"I can't. I can't look at myself the same way. I failed them, Damon. Our twin babies." Tears fall down her face and a sob escapes her lips.

"Meredith said that this was common. We can see someone-" She laughs.

"Damon, seeing someone is what humans do. Last I checked, we're still vampires. I don't want therapy, I don't want to get better! Because we lost our children! It was my job to protect them, and I failed!" I cradle her face in my hands.

"Elena, this wasn't your fault." I scoot her over then I lie next to her. She cries into my shirt and I keep my arms wrapped around her.

"Meredith is going to start coming over each day and we're just going to talk to her. Okay?" She nods and I smile at her.

"Ember is holding off on picking out her dress until you get to feeling better. They've set a date for the wedding." She manages a small smile.

"When is Meredith coming?" She asks weakly.

"In about an hour, why?" She looks up at me. She kisses me gently at first, but eventually she flips us to where she's straddling me. She lifts her shirt over her head. "Elena-" She silences me with a kiss then tears my shirt from my body. She quickly sheds her pants, leaving her exposed. I pull away as she tries to kiss me again.

"What's wrong?" I get out from under her. She pulls her pants and shirt back on and I grab mine.

"Are you seriously going to pull that?"

"Damon I was just-"

"You were looking for another baby. That's not why we do that Elena! We do that because we love each other!"

"I just want one! I want my belly to be big and swollen and I want you to make it kick at night when you rub circles into my bump!"

"This isn't us, Elena! We are vampires, just like you said! We have to deal with the pain and the loss and the suffering because that is the deal with eternal life!" She comes toward me and wraps her arms around my neck.

"I'm sorry. I love you. I-I just..." She looks at me pleadingly. "I want you." She says, barely audible. I lift her shirt from her head and she kisses me softly. I move my fingertips across her sides and back. This time she rips my shirt in half. I flash and I have her pinned on the bed.

Elena sleeps peacefully, her hair sprawled around her like a fan.

"Hey, wake up." I run my hand across her bare back and she wakes up, a tiny smile playing on her lips. She pulls her clothes on and I do the same. I go downstairs to let Meredith in when the doorbell rings.

"Elena, Meredith is here!" She comes downstairs and gives her a small smile.

"I'm gonna go in the living room and wait for you." We nod and I turn to Elena.

"I don't want to do this." She whispers.

"Elena, I know that... Well, that made you feel a little better, but for how long? I've been talking to this other guy for the past week and found him pretty helpful."