i didnt mean to love you...

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tw: use of f slur

Harry's P.O.V

we all walked back in through the door and louis rang Eleanor. he talked to her about what simon said. he made the mistake of putting her on speaker and not telling her. i heard her say down the phone 'so your gonna pretend to be a faggot' tears appeared in my eyes and i got angry, so did he. 'eleanor dont be a bitch. i was gonna break up with you anyway because i kinda fell out of love with you. but this just gives me a better reason to i guess'. i heard her scoff before he hung up the phone, then dragged me to the sofa. he told me to lay down, so i did. then he lied down and cuddled with me.

the sofa was only just long enough for me, but i couldnt care less right now. he hid his face in the crook of my neck, whispering sweet nothing into my ear. my heart swelled at his actions. he breathed onto my neck, sending shivers down my spine. we tangled our legs together and he fell asleep playing with my hair, causing my eyes to get heavy themselves.

i felt a blanket being thrown over me and i opened my eyes slightly to see zayn with his phone out taking a picture. i mentally rolled my eyes then fell back asleep, cuddling more into louis. he smelt nice, i sound so creepy but im not gonna deny the truth

|~next day time skip cus im lazy~|

Louis P.O.V

me and harry cuddled until i woke up and played with his rings. 'why do you wear rings?' i asked him softly 'dunno love just dont really like my fingers. and theyre pretty.' he answered in a slight whisper. 'seriously. your fingers are so cute. like little caterpillars' i respond truthfully. he giggles before sitting up causing me to go with him. i whine but he glares at me jokingly so i shut up. bitch is intimidating.

today we have a meeting with simon. im more nervous about this one as i know what its about. 'how are you feeling about today?' he asks me as if he heard me 'nervous, but good.' 'dont worry, i'll be there with you.' he holds my hand and squeezes it. i close my eyes again to go to sleep. 'no you cant sleep, we have to get ready' he whines. 'fine' i say in a jokingly angry tone.

he tries to push me up but im not budging so he lifts me up bridal style and carries me to our shared bathroom and places me on the floor. 'shower cus u stink. then put on something like yesterday. but not the same thing. take my hoodie or something. but be quick we have to go soon.' he says in a lecturing tone. 'alright calm down daddy' i say before realising what i was gonna say. he turns a vibrant shade of pink before bursting out laughing. i stare at him in shock before i start laughing myself. he soon walks away still giggling over the scene that just happened. i shower still flustered and begin getting ready.

|~another time skip cus im lazy~|

Louis P.O.V

it's time to go for the meeting with simon. to be honest i really can't be arsed. i just wanna stay home and cuddle haz. harry has been my best friend out of the lot since the start. but zayn seems to think i have feeling for him. it never really crossed my mind that i did. but whenever he kisses my head or cheek or hand or whatever i get this tingly feeling wherever he does it. anyway, we get in the car and drive to the office. once we're in simon's office he immediately says, 'so how are you going to tell the world' we hadn't thought about it before.

'i- we don't know' harry perks up.

'ok. well we can discuss that now. i already have a plan, you will be on the ellen show on saturday. and you will come out to the world.'

todays thursday. i reply 'one problem si. we're in london, she's in burbank. how are we gonna get there in 2 days?' harry gently places his hand on my thigh to to stop it bouncing. 'it's ok, i already planned that. ellen is in london and she has set up a studio to film in. you 5 will be picked up at 12:00 and taken to the studio, then at 3, you will be on air. but please do not say anything about it until after the break. i will text one of you in case you forget.'

it took me a while to take it all in, but once i did i smirked and nodded 'alright simon' harry said before simon told us we could leave.

we are actually doing this.

Harry's P.O.V

Me and lou got into my car and set off home. traffic was horrible. we were in silence until louis opened up to me about something. 'can i be honest' 'yeah sure' 'i know i've kissed you before, but i dont really think it counts. what if like- i dont know it doesn't matter'. i looked at him then back at the road 'no say it, i'm sure it's not too bad' he fidgeted for a second before talking again. 'what if we kissed after coming out' i was kind of thrown at his question but quickly found my voice. 'y-yeah that'd be a-alright.'

i smiled at him quickly. 'also, i dont really know how to kiss a guy, i mean yeah we kiss, but like that's just messing around. is it any different to kiss a guy and the kiss actually mean something.' he said that shyly.

i look at him again and pull over. 'do you think it's any different?' i asked 'y-yeah but, could- i dont know we could just go home.' 'no whats wrong' 'could you show me, n-not now maybe lat-' i interrupt him by locking our lips together, keeping my lips still until he caught on and i began gently moving them. he kissed back and moved his hand to place it on my cheek. after a minute, i pull away to catch my breath and look in the rear view mirror to see my lips slightly red. i smirk slightly. 'you seem like you know how, guys kiss rougher than girls, remember that.' he smiled and i could see the blush in his cheeks, but didn't bother saying anything. 'i will, d-do you think we could do this on the ellen show? but if we do, w-we cant tell the others, they'll spoil it' 'yeah ok'. i smile and sit back normally.

i start driving back not talking about what happened. the whole time on the way back louis' face was bright red. he's so cute. ok i need to calm down.