i didnt mean to love you...

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ok so this is gonna be louis pov the whole time i think. i might be wrong. anyway. here ya go. also TW: use of the f slur.

Louis' P.O.V

i woke up with my head in harrys lap. i remember lying down, but i dont remember falling asleep. oh well. his right hand was around my waist holding mine. and his left hand was playing with my hair gently. it was so relaxing, this is probably how i ended up falling asleep. i think i'm going to tell niall today about how i feel towards harry. i heard harry singing softly to me as a lied there half asleep. i didnt wanna fall back asleep so i squeezed his hand gently to let him know im awake. it worked.

'morning lou' he looked down at me smiling. i smiled back cuddling more into his thighs. 'morn'n' '. he giggled at how sleepy i was. it made my heart beat 10x faster. i hope he didnt feel it. i sat up slowly and ended up leaning my head on harry's shoulder. he's comfy. i heard giggles and footsteps as i turned around to see liam and niall hand in hand walking towards the living room. they immediately let go of each others hand and walked in. 'guys, dont play dumb, we know you're dating' niall's face turns a bright shade of red at harry's words. but he's not wrong.

|~time skip~|

Zayn came home and niall and liam finally told us they were together. even though we all already knew. we all have to go out today which means me and harry get to act all lovey-dovey when we're walking around. i mean... im not complaining. we get to hold hands and hug (more than usual) and possibly even kiss. but thats later. now. i need to talk to niall.

i decide the place he will probably be is in his room. i knock first so i dont walk in on something gross. also. its just kinda rude to walk into someones room. 'ni?' i say loudly after knocking. i hear footsteps then the door opens wide and i look round his room to make sure liam isnt there. 'whats wrong lou, everything ok' i walk into his room and shut the door behind us. 'is liam in here' niall looks at me with a confused expression 'n-no. why. whats wrong' i took a deep breath before sitting down on his bed and pulling him with me.

'i like harry.' his jaw drops as he grabs my hand and places the back of it on his forehead to lean on. 'oh shit. ok explain.' great. now im nervous. i pull my hand away and begin playing with the hem of my t-shirt. 'i-i uhh. d-dont really know. i guess i-i just realised t-that i f-fell for h-him.' i look up and meet niall's eyes. he smiles widely. 'ok, thank you for telling me' he gives me a hug 'god you stink go shower bitch' he jokes. i laugh loudly but listen to him and go shower.

|~time skip to after shower~|

when i walked back into my room i saw harry sorting out an outfit for me. 'oh uhh hey haz.' he jumped a little bit and turned to face me. 'hi s-sorry i was just trying to find you a nice outfit i hope you dont mind.' i smiled. 'uh no its okay, thanks.' i walked over to him and pointed to a pair of black jeans paired with a stone rose white t-shirt and the denim jacket he wore on the ellen show. what it looks good. he smiled 'i like that on too. ok get dressed naked boy we're going out in half an hour' he patted my shoulder and walked off. i blushed then got dressed.

once i was dressed i walked downstairs to see liam and niall snuggling, zayn on his phone probably texting gigi, and harry was putting his shoes on. 'oi oi' they all turned to look at me. 'so when are we going' niall asked. he's always been so impatient. 'once louis puts his shoes on.' harry turns and passes me my, very dirty, vans. i slipped them on and stood up 'leggo' niall laughed louder than he shouldve which made us all chuckle.

as soon as we stepped out the door harry held my hand, we weren't even visible to the public yet. i squeezed his hand three times. i dont know what it meant yet, but he did it back then looked down and smiled at me. i smiled back and looked down to hide my blush.

we had been walking in the main street for about 15 minutes now and about 6 people noticed us. they were all talking about how cute me and harry were. we just bumped into another fan and we all said our hello's and gave her hugs. 'can i just ask something quickly' i nod 'could you two kiss for a picture.' my eyes widen and before any of us could say anything harry pulled me into a sweet kiss. it was quite short. but i didnt care.

i pulled away with blush all over my face and the 'fan' had a disgusted look on her face. 'what you asked them to kiss' niall said not wanting to sound defensive but failing enormously. 'i know, but i didnt think they would' she sassed back eyeing niall. before anyone could say anything else she barged past liam muttering 'faggots'. i wasnt having this. 'what was that love.' she turned around shaking her head. 'i called you a faggot, what you gonna do about it, get your boy toy to hurt me.' she replied pointing towards harry. who does this bitch think she is. i look towards harry who is looking at his feet. i turned back towards the girl, who was still looking at me.

'ok 1. never EVER talk about my boyfriend like that again. and 2. im not getting him to do anything, he doesnt deserve what disgusting people like you say. so if your gonna say shitty things about my boyfriend or ANY of my friends, it better because you wanna go to court. do you want that babes?' her face went pale and she looked me in the eyes. 'i-im s-sorry.' i scoffed not believing her 'yeah, me too. bye.' she immediately turned around and sped off.

i turned around and all 4 boys were staring at me shocked. 'what, i may be gay but ive not lost it' i slapped a hand over my mouth realising what i just said. 'y-your gay.' harry asked. i knew they all didnt care, but i did. thats not how i wanted to tell them. i felt tears threaten to leave my eyes. i didnt know what to do except run. run back to our house. ignore fans that tried to stop me. god what am i on about. no one even likes me. i reached the door and unlocked it, quickly running inside and up the stairs to my bathroom. i dont know why i felt like i needed to do this. i promised mum.