i didnt mean to love you...

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Harry's P.O.V

ive never felt worse. leaving that bathroom with a tear-stained face and eyes shooting in my direction from everywhere. louis gripped my hand tightly as we left. the day had turned to shit. utter. shit. louis told me it wasnt my fault, that he shouldve gone before we left or waited until we got back. but the feeling in the pit of my stomach tells me otherwise.

the walk home was silent. not uncomfortable. it was almost like we were both holding in our unbearable anger. my large hand smothered louis' small one as we walked past houses and shops. putting on fake smiles whenever we saw a fan or two. i felt disgusting and im sure louis was the same. we arrive at the house when louis finally hugs me. he holds me so tight. i hug back, wrapping my slender arms around his slim waist.

'im so sorry louis.' i whisper holding back the waterworks. 'dont. its not your fault ive told you.' he says sternly. i pull away from the hug and give him a sad smile which is half returned. i look down at my feet guiltily but louis is quick to lift my head back up with his index and middle finger. he slowly rises on his toes and leans in, placing a gentle kiss on my lips. i leant my forehead on his afterwards and closed my eyes, trying my best to take my mind off of todays events.

the door suddenly flings open and we pull away quickly, seeing niall at the door with a confused look on his face. 'you guys are weird. anyway. what happened to your date' he asked with a smirk playing on his lips. the colour drained from our faces. niall quickly went from smirking to looking concerned. 'guys? guys cmon get inside its gonna rain' he says, moving out of the way for us. i let louis in first and follow soon after.

'just give us a minute ni' louis says with a sad smile. it hurts me to see him so broken like this. it hurts me to see him like this. it's not louis. niall nodded and sprinted upstairs. as soon as we got to the living room, louis broke down in my arms. he clinged onto me tightly and began full on sobbing. i soothed him and tried to calm him down by singing to him. nothing was working this time. i began to well up myself but forced the tears away.

louis began gripping and fisting at my shirt. is knuckles turned white so i pulled his hands away and held them in my own. 'lou babe try breathing for me ok. in through the nose out through the mouth. cmon love.' i said before doing as i said and breathing in through my nose, out through my mouth. he copied and soon his breathing was calm. the sobbing had stopped and now it was just lifeless and silent tears making their way down his cheeks. he lets out a yawn. 'sleep love. ill wake you up later' i whispered in his ear before laying down and pulling him onto my chest. as soon as his breathe went steady i pulled my phone out and texted niall to get all three of them to come down.

zayn comes through the door first, followed by liam, and niall last. they all look in fond and mine and louis' cuddling but i ignore them. 'so what happened' liam asked in a hushed voice due to the sleeping angel on my chest. 'we went to the cafe down near the river and got seated. just before we ordered he went to the toilet as you do. he was gone for like 5 minutes and there was screaming. loud screaming.' i paused to breathe as i stared at the ceiling. 'some women checked the female toilets but no one bothered to check the males. i completely forgot about lou until the screaming started again. i went to the male toilets and sure enough he was the one screaming. he- umm.' i stopped to think of how to say this. closing my eyes momentarily to let the tears slip. 'e-ed was in there. and that asshole was t-t-ouching louis. so i hit him. hard. and a lot. he was unconscious and the police had to drag him out. he wasnt dead and i didnt get arrested because it wasnt assault. it was self defence on someone elses behalf. seeing ed really fucked with my brain and seeing him fucking groping louis didnt help. s-sorry. but there. thats what happened.'

i opened my eyes and saw all three boys staring at me in shock. they all mutter out profanities in unison. i look down and the sleeping boy in my arms and feel tears prickling my eyelashes again. i let them fall and start drawing patterns on louis' clothed back. niall comes over and places an ever-so-gentle kiss on louis' forehead. he smiles lightly in his sleep and i cant help but feel a pang of jealousy. niall seemed to notice and smirks slightly resulting in him getting flipped off. he walks out with liam and zayn following behind.

louis starts to stir in his sleep so i move my arms. he whines in protest so i put my arms back. he sighs contently before blinking his eyes open. 'did you tell them' he asks in a very quiet whisper. 'yeah love i did. and they werent happy' i reply in a hushed voice. he hums and gets up off my chest. i sit up with him and grab his hand. he looks me in the eyes before slowly leaning in.

i copy his actions and soon we were so close i could feel his breath on my lips. his eyes were still trained on mine before he shut them and closed the gap between us. i kissed back immediately and moved my lips against his in a way that had my heart racing. the room was silent except for our heavy breathing. i hesitantly pulled away before we got to far into it and leant my forehead against his like i did outside.

'harry?' he whispers with his eyes closed.

'hmm.' i respond.

'i think im in love with you' he whispers with rasp but to my ears it was clear as day. a smile made its way to my lips as my eyes welled up with tears of joy.

'i think i love you too louis' my voice cracks at the end.

louis pulls his face away from mine and looks at me in shock. he furrows his eyebrows and pouts hit bottom lip out a little bit. i nod in conformation as a tear rolls down my cheek.

'i love you louis. so much. and i have for so long but i was too scared to say anything.' i say in a quiet voice.

he is quick to wrap his arms around my neck and hug me. i put my hands on his waist and move him to sit on my thighs with a leg each side. 'i love you. holy shit i love you so fucking much..' he whispers into my neck. im scared if i answer i will cry so i kiss his forehead and wrap my arms around his torso.

i hear cooing and turn around being careful not to hurt louis. and what a shock. liam, niall and zayn are all stood there with giant smiles on their faces. i flip them off and turn back around playing with the hairs on the back of louis' neck. i cant believe he knows now. more to the fact. i cant believe he said it first. i cant believe he loves me.