I Want What You Have - l.s

Chapter 9 - Harry

Harry runs a hand through his hair, his eyes still wide a couple minutes after Louis rushed off to the bathroom.

What. The. Fuck. Just happened?!

The bulge in his pants has finally calmed down after a few minutes of panicking outside, but his mind is still in haywire. Not only did he actually get a boner because of Louis, his best friend that he's known since they were FIVE for god's sake! But he is almost positive that he also felt Louis's hard dick bulging from his jeans as he walked past.

Harry realises he should go back to the garage before anyone gets curious why he is sitting here by himself, but his head honestly feels too erratic to even form a proper sentence. Louis. Louis William Tomlinson. His bestest friend in the world. Probably the one person Harry hoped wouldn't see him any different once he came out as gay. Now a person that just turned him on. A person that Harry may have turned on... A person who hasn't even admitted to being gay!

Harry takes another shaky deep breath and finally stands up. As he walks back to the garage, he clutches the neck of his guitar so tight that his knuckles turn white.

Everything feels muffled as Harry enters the room, like he's underwater. He can see what's in front of him clearly but it feels so far away. The rest of the boys are still hanging out like nothing has changed.

But it has. Everything's different now.

He walks over to his keyboard and starts playing with some melodies, Louis still isn't back yet. Harry can feel his pulse racing in anticipation. What does he do when Louis returns?! Does he ask to talk with him about it? How would he even start a conversation like that?! 'Hey Louis so I think we both just got hard because of each other... uhh what does that mean?'

Harry starts to blush as he continues looking down at the keys. He really shouldn't be overthinking this so much. It probably didn't even mean that much to Louis, he had just been emotional about Harry's song. Maybe it caused him to think about someone he actually has feelings for...?

Harry can't help but feel slightly disappointed at that thought. However, he immediately buries the idea of him actually having romantic feelings for Louis deep into the back of his mind. He can't think like that. He won't think like that.

Harry remains focused on his keyboard even when the familiar sound of Louis' footsteps starts getting louder while he returns to the room. Harry can't muster the courage to face him right now, so instead he peers over to where Ashton is trying to teach Tessa how to drum.

Harry smirks as he watches Tessa cracking up while Ashton sits behind her on the stool, trying to get her to create an actual beat with his hands wrapped around hers holding the sticks. So much for him and Louis needing a plan to get them together.

Harry's eyes mindlessly flick to the side to figure out what Louis is doing. He watches as Louis moves to sit on the couch beside Calum who is sitting on an amp talking with Luke and Michael. Calum doesn't even seem to care that his 'date' is currently flirting with his best friend.

"Good, you're finally all back! We should probably start practicing now before it gets too late." Calum exclaims once he notices Louis' return.

"Yeah, that's probably a good idea." Michael says, picking up his guitar so they can actually get started.

Ashton's still smiling as Tessa moves to get up and sit beside Louis. Harry remains hiding behind his keyboard but subtly watches as Tessa plops down on the coach getting a fond shove from Louis, signaling to her that he knows what she's doing with Ashton. She just shrugs in return and motions to where Calum is happily tuning his bass.