What happens in Vegas...

Chapter 23: Adapting

Anna's POV:

It took a while to overcome the guilt and shame I felt. Also to become in the terms of being pregnant, mentally and physically. I had severe morning sickness till the end of 4th month, so I was very occupied with keeping me healthy. But the sight I witnessed at Kats gave me strength to be strong, endure all and enjoy preparing for the motherhood.

We decided that we wanted to hide my pregnancy for as long as possible, not being asked about everything seemed easier and made my own adapting easier. So usually I hid behind the sunglasses and wore t-shirts and boyfriend jeans or shorts. Of course our friends knew. It was easy to lie once and tell that I was on medicine so I didn't want to mix it with alcohol. But it wasn't easy the next time on our BBQ party, especially when one certain person had a wide grin over his face. So we revealed it but asked to keep it to themselves for a while.

Jai was gone a lot, I visited him as soon I felt better. He was so ecstatic about my barely noticeable belly. He played guitar and talked to it, kissing and rubbing it. He was eagerly waiting the belly to grow and wouldn't shut up about it.

On 5th month of my pregnancy the first doubts came to surface on the media. We were asked about it and Jai couldn't hide how thrilled he was about the baby. So the cats out of the bag now. I thought watching picture of me and Jai walking on the street in Toronto.

It was actually the day we came from the ultrasound, so the emotions regarding this moment the picture was taken, were showing clearly. The moment the doctor confirmed the sex of our baby, I saw the emotions Jai was going through and I broke down. I can't believe I wanted to ruin all of this? I thought when I remembered the shit with what our journey had begun. Even if Jai and I hadn't stayed together, I knew that I'd made the decision to step out of the surgery room for me, before even knowing if Jai would stick around or not. And I was proud of the decision. It helped me heal. He helped me heal, with his unconditional love that had grown even more. That heart I'd torn into pieces was loving me, us. His arms squeezing mine, dragged me out of my thoughts and I wiped my happy tears and chuckled with a silly smile on my face. His was even sillier. His cheeks will broke soon if he won't stop smiling. I thought feeling little sting in my cheeks, watching our baby from the screen.

While I was home alone I changed my home office into a nursery. I tried to find a solution for my office corner in the living-room. When I wasn't sitting online searching for some ideas, I was shopping for baby stuff. Now that the big secret was out, I was able to go through baby stuff as I wished.

Baby shower was held at a cafe near our home. Kat took Jenni to her first ever plane flight to be with us. That meant that she organized it all, before she ever stepped off the plane week earlier. I just had to pick up some stuff for the party and float around with my round belly. Jai had some free time between his interviews and promos, so he spent it with me and Jenni while Kat was arranging things. We got to play happy parents before our baby was born. We took Jenni to the beach in the afternoons when it wasn't too hot anymore. Once again I knew that everything would be alright as I was watching Jai with her. He was a natural with the kids. My heart melted.

The party was a big success, Kat had done amazing job with everything. And I was glad that I didn't have to drag my pregnant ass everywhere to organize it. I basically took my belly to the party and smiled and thanked everybody.

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The weeks went by fast. I tried to move as much as I could, went walking and swimming almost daily. Jai took a big pride of my physical state since he himself was in an excellent shape. Though when the due date was near he banned me from doing anything. He did most of it when he could and was pissed when he caught me doing something.

After the due date was passed we thought of ways how to induce my delivery but after all the possible ways were exhausted, literally... Jai gave up saying "The kid comes when it's the right time." He had planned to go for a beer with some of his friends to let out of the steam, joking about baby wanting to come out the second he sits down at the bar.

Doubt that.