Cambiar - spanish word, means TO CHANGE.
Kiefer
It's been two weeks since Mika and I started dating secretly. And honestly I beginning to like the idea of having her in my life. She's really different from the other girls I've dated before. Innocent. Shy. Reserved. Sometimes moody or brat but still cute. That's a few words that came into my mind whenever I describe her.
Natatawa na nga lang ako sa sarili ko kasi ung mga di ko ginagawa sa mga girls ko nun, gusto ko gawin sakanya at maexperience nya. Were dating at the same time I'm courting her. Mayabang na kung mayabang pakinggan pero I know she's going to say YES and be with me not only for three months. The truth, that three months was only a bait for her, for me to caught her. I think I'm obsessed with her. I know for some this is not me. I'm not the one who chase or pursue a girl but with Mika, I had to change.
She made to changed a few things about me. That's why I want her badly. I don't know what she does, but there something in me that made me think again about love and relationship. Unexpectedly, I think I'm beginning to fall for her. And soon I will admit it to her. Bahala na if di nya ko mahalin pabalik basta masabi ko sakanya un. Gusto ko guluhin ung utak nya at puso nya.
And my next move is to get rid of Kris. I will replace him in Mika's life. And I will make a way na magustuham din ako ng parents ni Mika. Bit by bit. I will do it slowly but surely. Surely that Mika will be mine. At kahit ayawan pa ko ng family nya or sino pa umayaw sakin, sisiguraduhin ko naman na si Mika ang hahabol sakin. Damn! This thoughts. This girl is really killing me.
Mika
I'm with him already. I'm dating him secretly. I'm his currently flavour of the month, I mean for three months. But everyday I'm falling for him. Yung mga di ko naranasan kay Kris, pinapaexperience nya sakin. He made me feel that each moment feels like our first one. But yes, his my first kiss, first guy that I slept with, first guy to saw me almost naked, first guy who made me realized to be not afraid to commit mistakes and to change, first guy to made me laugh and smile at my happiest.
I'm at my happiest with him. But what we have is wrong and a big mistake. But maybe I can say having him will be my favorite mistake. Ngayon lang ako sumugal para maging mali. At tama nga masarap yung bawal. I'm dangerously inlove with this guy. But after three months I need to let go. I know his reputation that he doesn't know how to love. But surely I'll never ever have regrets for having him in my life. It will be one of my darkest secret but it will definitely the most treasured one.
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Kiefer
"Baby I have a practice today and a photoshoot for a magazine later." I said. I was talking to her on the phone. I missed her badly but due of my schedule recently two days ka na sya di nakikita.
"Aww ok. It's fine. I'm still at my work also. But matapos na din ung duty ko. You better take care. I miss you." She said. Damn! This is girl. She's the sweetest. How can I not love her. Yung sweetness nya di nya alam na ang lala ng epekto sakin. She's so innocent in everything what she does.
"Hmm do you have plans for tonight with the lings?" I asked. Sa totoo lang may binabalak na naman akong itakas sya tonight. Yeah. I always to that. Whenever I missed her.
"Ahmm wala kaso..kasi..kasi anu..anu kasi.." She's stuttering. Kapag ganito sya alam ko na. Kris, that bastard lawyer again.
"Kris invited you for tonight?" I said. I know I sounded irritated. Yeah I'm irritated knowing that tonight hihiramin ni Kris sakin si Mika. I know wala naman masama mangyayari kay Mika whenever she's with Kris pero ayaw ko isipin na hahawakan nya si Mika. Gago ko noh. Ako ung other man pero ako ung gusto mampektus dun sa Kris na yun. I'm jealous and if ganito ung nararamdaman ko it's not a good sign. I need to control my emotions.
