One Night Changes Everything

Chapter 17

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Cherish

I put my hand on my chest when I felt the strong burning sensation the Everclear I just drank left in my throat. This was the only thing that could give me peace from the thoughts running through my head.

Kill her, you know you want to. Shaking my head I rolled my car window down to let the cool night air in. Hopefully this cleared my mind.

I've never heard it this much, it was never this strong. The voices and thoughts in my head grow stronger every day. I try to block it out, but it always comes back angrier than ever.

"Just block it out, block it out Cherish, block it out." I whispered to myself. Baby girl you know you can't fight me. "Leave me alone," Putting my hands over my ears I rocked myself back and forth in hopes of this voice going away.

You really look crazy right now baby girl. Just stop and go kill the bitch. It'll make your life way easier. "I'm not killing my sister, no."

Fuck that bitch. She doesn't give a fuck about you, she fucked with Major after he dumped you, and do you really think she's about to be on your side when she knows that you cut her best friend in the face?

"You made me do that!"

So? Is that what you're going to tell her? Come on Cherish, right now is really not the time for you to be a punk. You were hard up until this part baby girl.

"I'm not hard; I never wanted to do that stuff. You made me do it."

You still did it though. Baby girl I'm the best thing that has ever happened to you. Are you forgetting? I got you this far.

"Right, you got me ostracized from my family and everybody thinks I'm a fuckin' psycho. Just leave me alone!" I screamed in frustration. As soon as I felt a strong pain go through my head bringing tears to my eyes.

Who the fuck...Do you think you're talking to like that Cherish? Baby girl just listen to me alright. Your sister doesn't give a fuck about you, your parents don't give a fuck about you. Nobody gives a damn about you so you might as well just listen to what I'm saying. Kill that bitch!

"I'm not doing it leave me alone,"

No, you need to kill Promise, what are you so concerned with her for? She's the reason Major doesn't want you. She's the reason why your parents look at you like you're a failure. She's the fuckin' reason why you never made shit out of yourself. Get rid of her, she's a fuckin' problem. Just think about it.

After ten minutes of excruciating pain and taunting the voice went away. A part of me wanted to ignore what she said but what if she has a point? I'm an outcast in my own family. As much as my parents think they're helping me they make me way worse.

I never want to do the horrible things that happened, I have no choice. Instead of being upfront about it my parents wanted to hide it. Nobody could know that the daughter of Marcel King has a mental illness. We can't go to a specialist we have to have some random ass man who calls himself a therapist trying to analyze me

When I got old enough to deal with his appointments by myself I made sure to skip all of them. He wasn't trying to help me, he was judging me. I already got enough of that from my family and the people at school I wasn't about to deal with some man who doesn't even give a damn about me.

If it wasn't the fake ass doctor shit that had them getting on me it was the fact that I was nothing like my sister. Promise is perfect and I've always hated it. Her grades were perfect, she never got in trouble, we're identical but I know for a fact that everybody loved her more than me. She told me so, Promise was everybody's dream while I was the nightmare.