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Drogenrausch

Drogenrausch (noun. german)

It's when you take drugs and... ah shit I'm drunk... why is everything spinning?

Drug intoxication

Have you ever taken ecstasy?
Me neither. But I heard that even having it on your tounge for longer than five seconds will make you feel it.

Surprisingly, me and Frank's friends got along great. It only took a few seconds for me to realise that all they wanted to do was talk about this and that and him and her, not expecting for me to say something in return. I just learned to laugh at the right time - usually when Hayland started to laugh - and soon enough I had actually become part of the group.

Much to Frank's dismay.

Hayland stated for the fifth time of the evening how he "liked this guy" talking about me and with each time Frank's frown got deeper. He hadn't said a single word since they had come to our table and it didn't seem like this was about to change.

I was about six drinks in by now, not counting the shots, and I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't drunk. I know I wasnt supposed to, but with Sarah and Hayland always ordering another round I didn't have much of a choice.
Maybe this is why Frank was so salty all evening. I had broken his rule and now I was in trouble.

Like I said, I was about six drinks in when Hayland pulled out a little box from the inside of his suit. Sarah and Jenny got all excited as if they had been waiting for this the entire evening. Hayland opened the box and I could see that it was full of little white pills. He picked one out with his thumb and index finger and handed it over to Sarah who gladly took it and put it on her tounge with a smile. Then Hayland took out another one and reached his fingers out to Jenny who just opened her mouth expectantly. He held it up over her face and dropped it into her mouth before chuckling and swallowing a pill himself.
Before putting it away he held the box out to me.
"Here, take one. I would offer one to you too, Iero, but you would only decline my generous offer."

I hesitated. I had never done drugs in my 25 years of living. Was I really going to start with it now? I mean... I didn't even know what exactly Hayland was offering me here. For all I know it could be rat poison in disguise. But then again, all three of them had taken pills from the same box so I was not going to die.

"Hey, this is not some off-street bullshit. This is the high end stuff. Take one!", he said again and shoved the box over to me.

"He doesn't want it."
This was the first time I had heard Frank speak in hours and the tone in his voice made me shiver. Why did he sound so harsh?

"Well, if he doesn't want one he can say it himself. Take one."
The first half was spoken to Frank while he addressed his demand to me.

And here was the problem. I couldn't tell him that I didn't want to try whatever was in the box. I couldn't even say 'no' to all the drinks being handed to me. 
Because even though I was drunk, the irrational fear of being rejected by all these rich and famous people was still very present in the back of my head.
I probably would have jumped off a bridge if they told me to do so.

"W-What is that anyway?", I asked and tried to laugh but it sounded more like a nervous chuckle.

"Ecstasy.", Sarah said before Hayland could answer, "the best there is on the market."

I tried to see any signs of Sarah being high or something but she seemed normal to me.
Well... as normal as she had been tonight at least.

"Don't take it.", Frank hissed next to me just loud enough for me to hear.
And that's when I made my decision.