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Atemnot II

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"You brought your phone didn't you?"
He stepped forward even more and if he had leaned in a little his wet hair would have tickled my nose by now.
This was not what I had planned.
This was not the closure I had wanted.
Was I going to die after all?

"No I didn't. It's at my place. Charging."

"Liar."
The smile that spread across Frank's face sent shivers down my spine. Everything I was saying played right into what he wanted. And he knew that all too well.

"Stop acting like that, Frank. I know you're just fucking with my head."

"Oh right, that's another thing I was thinking about the past couple of days."

I gulped as I felt his breath on my cheek.

"I thought about fucking you a lot. How it felt to have your lips wrapped around my cock. But you don't remember that, do you?"

"Well didn't you say that it wasn't worth remembering anyway?"
I tried to sound confident and witty, just as he did, but even I could hear my voice shake slightly.

"Looks like you're not the only liar here."

Now even I was certain that he was flirting with me.
He had just told me that our night together hadn't been awful.
Even more, he basically said that it had been great.
And that he was thinking about doing it again.

How was I supposed to have an actual conversation about my feelings now that I was flustered and horny?

"Now what should I do with you?", Frank sighed.
I couldn't find the words to say anything and just swallowed the saliva that had been building up in my mouth.

Frank watched the motion go through my throat.
He reached out with his finger and lightly rested it underneath my chin before slowly tracing it's way down over the Adam's Apple all the way to my shirt.

"Its not easy you know? Holding my head under the faucet to make it look wet. And getting undressed with the thought of you in my head. A towel doesn't do much to hide a boner."

He was testing me. He wanted me to look down and check for myself.

"You planned this?", I asked instead.

"Of course I did. Two days of thinking got me all worked up, you see? I had to do something about that."

"What do you expect me to do?"

"Oh nothing! You don't have to do anything. I'm just trying to save the moment. I like seeing you all flustered."

"How long do you want to keep this up for, huh?", I sighed.

Frank moved back a little. His finger was still hooked into the hem of my shirt but now he took it away and instead placed his whole hand on my chest.

"I can feel your heartbeat."

"Drop it, Frank. If you wanted to do anything you would have done it by now. You're trying to pull something I just dont know what it is yet."

"You think you're so clever. One might think you would have learned to just keep your mouth shut sometimes."

"Maybe I need a little help with that."

I didn't even know what had gotten into me at that point.
That was not what I had wanted to say but the words had just slipped out of my mouth!
Fuck.

Even Frank seemed to be surprised by what I had said.
He didn't think I would have the guts to challenge him like that.
But once the shock wore off, a smile came back on his face which was so wide it showed his teeth.

"I thought you'd never say that.", he breathed out before he closed the little space between us and put his lips on mine.
He pulled me into a heated kiss and I couldn't help but give in after a few seconds of hesitation.

This was all on me.
I could have avoided this.
If I had wanted to.
But wasn't this exactly what I had come here for?
Didn't I, deep inside of me, hope for this to happen?

All the thinking bothered me. It was hard to form a proper thought when Frank's hands were gripping the back of my shirt like that.

"Do you maybe want to take this somewhere else?", Frank breathed out, mouth still on mine.
I tried to break the kiss for a second but he wouldn't let me move.

I should really think about this, because whatever my answer would be, there was no going back afterwards.
If I said 'no' to him now, I might never get another chance to replay that one night ever again. But if I decided to give in and agree to do this, it could make everything so much worse.
But didn't I already fuck up just by letting him kiss me like this?
A little more couldn't be that bad, could it?

And before I could even list all my options in my head, I found myself nodding against Frank's mouth.
At first it looked like he didn't notice because he just kept pressing his half naked body against mine. But as I was about to embrace the situation and wrap my arms around him he stepped back and I could finally see his face again.

His cheeks were red and he was breathing just as heavily as I was. The way his lips looked glossy from a mixture of his and my saliva made me want to pull him right back into me.

He gave me a smile that seemed so genuine it made my heart skip one beat after another.

"Then let's not waste any more time.", he said and grabbed my hand before he turned around and dragged me after him on his way to the bedroom.
As if I didn't know the way already.

This was the third time I was entering his bedroom without the intention of cleaning it. And it was the first time I did it with all my senses working and in a way that wouldn't get me arrested sooner or later.

But Frank didn't give me any more time to get used to this new sensation. He led me straight to the bed that I had woken up in a bunch of hours ago and let himself fall on top of the duvets.
He shifted back a little and the motion made his towel slide off his hips.

Now I could see him in all his beauty and god... was he beautiful. The more I thought about him, the more I looked at him, the surer I was, that the picture in his living room didn't do him justice.
I would have stood there just staring at every inch of his skin if I had gotten the chance to.

If you were to ask me now, I would pinpoint this as the exact moment I fell in love with Frank's body.

Frank let me admire him for a couple of seconds. His eyes showed pride and lust. He was confident but he wasn't a man of patience.

"Do you just want to watch or do you actually want to do something?", he said playfully and I couldn't help but turn red. I didn't want him to know how handsome I found him.

Without waiting for an answer Frank sat up again and pulled me down on him by my shirt. It didn't stay on for much longer after that. Neither did my pants or anything else I had on that day. 

And just like that I had sex with the most famous photographer in the world for the second time in my life.

And Frank made sure that this time I would remember every second of it.

*A/N*

I cannot tell you how sorry I am for not updating any sooner.
Life is very crazy at the moment and honestly I am so close to just giving up everything and I am trying so hard to get everything done but I just can't keep up with life anymore.

Work is getting overwhelming but I need the money and I just wish I could make money with the things I love like my podcast and writing but I am so far away from ever getting where I want to be at in life that everything just seems impossible.

I am so sorry for letting you guys down all the time with my bad uploading schedule.
Please forgive me for not updating for months at a time.
Honestly I hate myself for it.

Sorry for the rant, too.
Getting work and life involved in general just seems like a bad excuse for everything lol.

I hope you still enjoyed the chapter and are willing to keep up with my bad time management.

I appreciate you all so much.

Love,
Jess