Game For Two

What did I just do (Joey)

I cant believe I just did this. I walked away from my entire heartbeat. I wiped my eyes as I pulled my car out the Hilton's parking deck. I know Bella should be getting the letter and reading it and I cant bear to think about her reaction. Did I want to do this, not a chance I dont even know how I am going to survive knowing I hurt her and the kids. I dont know how to explain it to the boys why I ripped them away from Bella and their brother and sisters. I reached for the button on the stereo and hit track 3, I could only listen to it for a second it just hurt to much, it was our song, the song we were supposed to dance too for the first time as husband and wife and now its all demolished. I know this is my own doing...all of it but it kills me that my decisions are going to break Bella's heart in a way I dont think I could ever make right. 

I just have to go even if its for a little while Im going to handle Liz once and for all but until I figure out how to do it I have to keep Bella, the kids and baby out of her crosshair. I drove for hour's and pulled up to the one place that was always my comfort, my parents. My mom is still back at our apartment in the city. No one will ever think of looking for me here since mom is in the city. I just gotta take the next couple weeks and try to figure shit out. I cant stay here long term, I dont know when my mom will be back and I still have to face the rest of my life and go back to my office in a couple weeks. I stepped in the house, it just felt so cold and lonely, I walked through the backdoor and into the guesthouse. It was like a knife to the chest even more. Everything in here is a constant reminder of Bella, our life, and the 100's of memories we shared here.

I walked into the bedroom and there was Bella's stuff everywhere I turned. Her brush on the dresser, her makeup in the bathroom. I walked over a pulled the clothes open, there hung her clothes. I wiped the tears with the back of my hand and ran my home over her clothes hanging on the hangers. I pulled one out bringing it to my face it still smells like her. I sighed and walked over pulled back and climbed in pulling her pillow close to me, it still has her scent on it and thats all I have left.

I woke up in the morning nausous and with a migraine. I still cant accept the fact I even did this. I pulled my phone from my bag. I havent turned it on since Liz messaged. I only turned it on to call my lawyer to see if there was anything I can do about Liz and her extorting me. Maybe if there is something I can do I can go back to Bella and make things right. What I seen when my phone powered on was over 100 messages from my brother, Dirty and everyone in between. I didnt even know how to answer anyone so I just deleted them all. I couldnt even bring myself to answer my mother and I never ignored my mother's calls. I knew she would be with Bella and as long as she has my mother and is with my mother I know she is being taken care of. I looked at the clock 9 oclock, the lawyer's office was opening. I quickly dialed. It rang three times before the line picked up

"Stephanie Hayes office how may I help you?"

"Hello can I speak yo Miss Hayes please?"

"Can I ask who is calling?"

"Joesph McIntyre"

"please hold Mr. McIntyre Ill transfer you now."

It was a few minutes before the line picked up,

"Joe, Im surprised you hear from you, is everything okay?"

"Stephanie no its not. Bella and I didnt get married I left."

"Joesph..."

"The reason I left is Liz. I made a stupid mistake a few months back and now she is extorting me. I left because she is threating Bella and I have to keep her safe."