Game For Two

Im not going back

We sat for a moment longer before climbing back in our cars an d headed home. My mind still running a million miles a minute, but just the fact Joe drove all the way here to find me for some reason means alot, since I know Ive been running so hot and cold recently. I pulled my Mercedes behind him in the driveway and he walked over to my car as I was climbing out, he didnt say a word just backed my up against the car pressing his lips into mine. his lips turned up into a smile.

"You know I love you right Bella?"

"I know"

He just pulled back and studied me for a second,

"Babygirl..."

"Im sorry Joe...You know I do, I just cant say it right now."

"Bella I thought that talk back there we were moving on past this?"

"We are its just not going to happen over night, there is still so much stuff Im feeling."

"You still want me and the boys to come home right?"

"I do but we still have alot to work out Joe, I shouldnt have to keep saying it."

"I get it Bella I really do but you have to stop running so hot and cold with me"

"You think I want to be like this, Joey Im trying I really am, I just cant help it. Sometimes I just look at you and every ounce of feeling I have always had for you hits me and all I want is our life back. Then there are times I look at you and it actually hurts because I keep thinking about everything I lost."

"I know I hurt you and I broke your trust and heart as much as I say I never meant too, I know I did. I have to live with that every single day. I have to see it in your eyes, I know it when you sneak off and cry. I cant change my actions, the only think I can do is try to prove it to you everyday that I love you and you're the only woman that ever mattered to me."

"This wasnt suppose to be us, other people had these issues not us. I think I just became to confident in that you couldnt or wouldnt do something like that I was blindsided. I know you have said your sorry and you know I just want us to be like we were but as much as we need to work on us, I need to work on myself."

"And thats what Im trying to do, Im leaving the city to show you Im serious, we have sole custody of the boys and Liz will never be a factor. Please believe me baby girl I will do anything you need me to do to get us back again, you just have to tell me and quit shutting down on me."

"What I need Joey is time, I need you to be here with me and the kids and only me. I need to know when you walk out that door you're not walking into some other bitches door, because at this point I dont understand why I can never be enough for you, because you have been more than enough and all I wanted since I was a child. If you want me I want the commitment to me and only me."

"You always been more than enough for me Bella, Im sorry I made mistakes Im only human. And you want a commitment Baby Girl how bout this marry me then."

I just stood looking at him for a moment, I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"Joey dont do that"

"Dont do what?"

"Ask me to marry you because you think thats what I wanna hear?"

"First off I always wanted to marry you since you were 17 years old, second I know it sounded like a half ass proposal to get you to see my point it wasnt. I always wanted and knew you were the one I was going to marry."

Joe's phone pulled us away from our conversation and honestly I was grateful. He quickly answered I could tell right away it was his mom. I headed inside leaving him in the driveway on the phone, I just needed a second to process my thoughts. I didnt get much of a chance, Joe walked in a minute later.