Game For Two

Coming for everything I lost

I sped as quickly as I could out the parking deck of the court house and straight to the boys school. It was only five minutes before they walked into the school office.

"Daddy what are you doing here?"

I walked them out the door's to the car.

"Get in boys were going home"

"why did you pick up us early?"

"Were going home to your brother and sisters and mom?"

"But daddy we havent been home in months you said we couldnt go home anymore or talk to mommy."

"Listen guys things happened and it took me going to court today to fix them, but I fixed them and now we are going back home and Im going to try to fix everything with mommy."

The drive back home seemed to drag on the boys eventually the boys settled down and watched something on their Ipad's leaving me with time to think. I like to think I just show up to Bella's ring the bell and when she answers I kiss her and never let her go, realistically I know I hurt her, I hurt her in ways I never wanted too and she never thought I would. Its been months I havent seen my kids and the only time I seen her I walked away when she still needed me even though it killed me to do. 

I finally pulled into Victor it was seven at night, I didnt real put to much thought on how I was going to do this, all I wanted to do was get back here to Bella and the kids. I didnt think that there probably is going to be push back from Bella and I have the boys with me. I made quick left going to the only place I knew I could get answers, my mom. The minute I pulled into my mom's driveway I barely had the car in park before the boys had jumped out and ran up to the door. The boys were in the house before I even made it up the walkway. I walked in the boys hugging my mother tightly.

"Hi mom"

"Joesph what are you and the boys doing here?" 

"I had court today.."

"How did it go?"

"Its over mama"

"Thank God"

"and now Im back for Bella and the kids."

"Joesph you cant just expect that you're going to walk in that door and she is just going to be fine with it."

"I know and I know I messed up but Im coming back for what I lost."

"Joesph you didnt lose anything you walked away."

"You know why"

"I do but dont say you lost something when you made a decision to leave."

"I know, how have they been mama?"

"How do you think they been? Bella is still struggling without you and what happened with a new baby none the less. You have a son that is growing up and needs his father. Everleigh is acting up really bad and Bella cant control here. So yeah they are doing great."

"I had no idea.."

"of course you dont you havent called or anything for months."

"Well Im home now"

"it doesnt work this way Joesph you just say you're home and she is suppose to accept the last few months and you leaving her at the wedding. Not gonna happen. That little girl is so hurt by you, more hurt than she has ever been by you, and so are the kids. Whatever happens between you and Bella is never suppose to effect them kids but it did. You walked away from those four kids, walked away from Bella pregnant. Yes you showed up for Nikki's birth but as soon as she was born you walked away from her too, and what about the boys you pulled them away from their siblings, their mother and they have a sister they never seen. The amount of damage you caused I dont know if its ever going to be repairable, I honestly dont think it is."

"We always get passed everything you know that."

"I dont know Joesph, I dont think thats going to happen this time."

"mama.."

"Im not going to lie to you Joesph, She is hurt,"

"I know"

"what you going to do?"

"Im going to the house to see her."

"I dont think thats going to go well, did you try calling her at first?"

"No..I have to do this face to face, can I leave the boys well I go?"

"Of course but dont go with any expections because Im sure she isnt going to even want to see you."

"I have to try mama..."

" Im not going to try to talk you our of it or argue, I'll keep the boys but I think this is something you arent going to be able fix."

"I gotta see her, I be back soon ma, thanks for keeping the boys."

My mom just nodded as I walked out. It was a hour to Bella's and it seemed to take forever. I pulled up into the driveway and my heart sank her car wasnt there. It slowly began to snow heavy, where can she be. She is normally home with the kids at this time getting them showered and dinner and ready for school. I didnt come all this way to turn around, So im gonna wait and I'll wait till she  gets home. Im not leaving here till I see her. 

It was a hour and in that hour the snow came down so hard her driveway and evrything was covered. I was answering a text from Carter when I say headlights pull in. I just watched for a moment, there she was. She still looks like that girl I fell in love with years ago, her jeans hugged her body tightly, she had on the Baby Pink puff jacket I bought her and her blond hair on the top of her head. I she turned and the light lite up her face, she just looked so sad. I took me a minute before I snapped out of my thoughts. I could feel my heart racing and my palms were sweating. I looked over and seen her struggling with something, This is it Im going over there. I jumped from the car and jogged up the driveway. By the time she had turned around there I was in front of her, all you could hear was the gasp that fell from her lips.

"Joey...."

"Hi my baby girl!"

"What...What are you doing here?"

"Im here for you, for my kids"

"No..NO you..you gotta go."

"NO BELLA, we need to talk!"

"There's nothing to talk about" 

all along she continued to stuggle with the carseat, I stepped forward and leaned in the car,

"what the hell you think you're doing?"

"Helping you, she is my daughter."

"She hasnt been your daughter the last month and a half since you walked out the delivery room, no go I have nothing to say to you!"

She grabbed the carseat from my hand and in a blink of a eye she walked up the stairs and into the house closing the door leaving me still standing in the driveway. I snapped out of the fog it just left me and I ran up the walkway knocking on the door,

"Bella... open the door."

"GO AWAY JOE!!"

"Baby girl please..."

I continued to knock and call her front the front of the house for what felt like forever but she never answered never even bothered to look out the window. Then it hit me, my key. I ran back to the car snatching the keys from the ignition and ran back up the walkway. I grabbed the key and tried to slide it into the lock..it didnt work, she changed the locks. I knocked one last time,

"Baby Girl please open up.. I need to talk to you. Bella...Baby Girl Im not giving up I love you!"

Still nothing. I sighed, she is obviously not going to open the door tonight, but this isnt over. Im not going to give up, Im not going to let her go. I wiped a tear that escaped and headed back to my car, I guess I'll just go back to my mom's and figure out my next move because I will not leave untill she at least talks to me.