Game For Two

Just like that

Just like that as I sit in the hospital bed our daughter only a hour old in my arms, he walked out without so much as another word. The tears slipped from my eyes and my chest hurt. It hurt, like I cant even explain. I know I told him to leave when he got here but I dont mean it, I want him. I dont know why I thought him watching Nikki being born he come home, come home to the kids, me but instead I watched him walk away again. He is killing me, absolutely killing me. The rest of the day there was a contstant influx of people coming to meet Nicole. Everyone from Kay to Dirty and Rae to J came. I love the fact everyone came and showed love for the baby and I but I just sit and wonder my the one person who is suppose to love us unconditionally keeps walking away.

I stepped out her hospital room and i couldnt fight the tears that came to my eyes, it was just no use. I just watched my daughter with Bella come in this world and I had to walk away. God knows I dont want to but I have too. I got into my car and pulled out the parking deck to start on the six hour drive back home. I pulled into the city and drove passed Liz's house on my way back home to the apartment and for half a second I thought of pulling into her driveway and just ending her, realistically I never would Im not that type of man, Ive never laid my hands on a woman, I never will no matter the situation. If I did this would be a damn good reason. I was mentally and physically exhausted when I pulled into the parking deck of my apartment and stepped on the elevator. It seems like yesterday Bella and I were riding this elevator up to the apartment, we just had Jade, my parents were at  the house and her and the kids all still lived here. So much has changed and I hate it. The apartment is so cold and empty only thing left of Bella and the kids are the pictures that sit on the mantle, my father is dead and Bella is alone back in Victor after just having our daughter. I know that's my fault but doesnt hurt none the less. 

I fell to the couch and pulled my phone from my pocket, there were texts from work, my sister and J and then my eyes fell upon a message from my lawyer. I quickly opened it,

Mrs Hayes: Joesph Ive been trying to contact you, please contact me when you get this.

Joe: Sorry I just got this

Mrs Hayes: Well Joesph Im just getting in touch with you, The courts have picked up the case against Liz.

Joe: Thats a good thing right?

Mrs Hayes: Yes it is. Now our Court date will be Febuary 10Th and 9am, please meet me there by 8:30 so I can brief you. Also if there is anymore contact or threats from Liz please do not engage her and contact me right away.

Joe: I will, also can we set up a appointment soon?

Mrs. Hayes: Of course what is in in regards?

Joe: I need to add my daughter on my will

Mrs. Hayes: You have all the children as well as Bella well set in your will already. 

Joe: No for my new daughter, I just got home from Victor, Bella had the baby today

Mrs Hayes: Well congratulations Joesph, please send my best to Bella as well.

Joe: I would if I could but I only went for the delivery and left right after.

Mrs Hayes: Oh that poor girl, well how would tommorow afternoon say 2 be?

Joe: I will be there.

I fell down to the couch and pulled up my photo album and just looked at the picture the nurse took of Bella the baby and I a few minutes after she was born and a tear dropped. Damn it, I should be there with them. She just had my baby and she watched me walk out on her again. I just wish I could explain this all to her I just cant. The boys still cry everyday for her and the kids they dont understand why we left and they cant see or talk to them. I miss the kids just as much as I do Bella. I never wanted to have to be away from them. I dont know what time it was when my body finally gave out and I fell asleep the phone with the picture in my hand.

The next two days passed and her I was getting ready to be discharged with Nicole. I just look at her and she is literally Joey's twin. I pulled up a baby picture on my phone of Joey and held it next to Nikki you wouldnt be able to tell them apart. Damn it as much as Im mad at him, as hurt as I am I would give anything in this world to have him back. A knock on my room door pulled me from my thoughts.

"Miss Rosselli"

"yes..."

"Im Brenda from Records, Im here to do this little girls birth certificate."

"okay.."

"Ok and what is the name you want listed on her birth certificate?"

"Nicole Dyanna McIntyre"

"Ok and your name needs to be listed as?"

"Bella Marie Rosselli"

"and the father's name?"

I signed and was conflicted in my heart she is Joey's baby and in the same instance he wants nothing to do with any of us.

"Im not listing it"

"oh..."

She paused at looked up from her clipboard.

"Do you not know who's it is?"

"something like that..."

She quickly finished the paper and handed it me.

"Ok please review the information and if its all correct please sign it and I will put it into vital records."

I read over it and signed handing it back to her and she seen her self out. I turned my attention back to Nikki and got her dressed its only a matter of time before the nurse came in with our discharge papers and Dirty would be here to take us home.

The alarm on my phone pulled me from my sleep, I grabbed it the picture still on my screen. I slid from the couch and headed upstairs and got ready for work. Im having a hell of a time even focusing on work my thoughts are always with her. 

It was 9 when I stepped off the elevator and walked down the hall to my office. I walked over to the desk to find stacks of files all over, I was only gone two days and I come  back to this. Luckily there is no meetings scheduled today, I can try to buckle in and tackle these the best I can before I go over to the lawyer's office this afternoon.

It was two when they discharged Nikki and I, Dirty already grabbing the bags and all the gifts and followed the nurse downstairs before grabbing the car and pulling it around the the patient discharge door. I put the baby in the backseat of his drop and slid in not saying a word.

"GB whats wrong"

"Nothing"

"Bullshit"

"Thinking."

"About Joe huh?"

"How could you possibly.."

"I know he can for her birth and left right away."

"Yeah..."

"You didnt want him to leave"

"it doesnt matter either way"

"Dont try to play me ive know you three quarters of your life, you want him to come home, you still love him.

"It doesnt matter on either case, he made his choices, he doesnt want me."

"I dont think its that or he wouldnt have came."

"You know Dirt, I dont even want to talk about this."

"Bell you need to, you gotta stop holding this shit in"

"I dont want too, now please!!!"

Dirty dropped it and nothing more was said. We pulled up to the house 10 minutes later and I walked in and upstairs with the baby not wanting to see or talk to anyone. All that played in my head is this little girl is never going to know how amazing her daddy truly was because he ran and isnt coming back.