Game For Two

What more do I have to do (Joey)

I watched her walk out the door leaving me alone in the bathroom. I let out a frustrated breath, I know I fucked up I really do but she isnt really even giving us a chance again. I took Dirty's advice and took it back to when I was trying to get with her, I didnt even try to sleep with her no matter how much it killed in the hopes it showed her I wasnt just trying to have sex with her. When she showed up at the hospital after my accident and she told the doctor that I was going home with her I thought I finally got through to her, that we were gonna make it. She has been running hot and cold for over a month. One minute I feel like great we really are going to work out and the next minute I feel like she only took care of me out of obligation.

A knock on the door pulled me from my thoughts,

"yeah!!!"

"Daddy I need the bathroom"

"Peanut can you use the one upstairs in mommies room?"

"I cant she is in there and she sounds like she is crying, daddy I gotta pee pee bad."

crying...why could she be crying? I opened the door and Jade rushed in passed me. I know I shouldnt go up there she is probably not even going to let me in, but just the idea of knowing she is upstairs crying I couldnt do it. I ran upstairs and pushed the bedroom door open and walked to the bathroom door knocking lightly,

"Baby Girl..."

"What"

"Baby Girl you alright in there?"

She didnt answer and the old fears Ive had since that night I found her practically dead in the family room hit me and I felt my stomach turn and my anxiety hit.

"Bella open the door."

Nothing, she didnt say a word and I couldnt hear what she was doing through the heavy wood door. I grabbed the knob and pushed it open almost scared on what I may see. I walked in there she sat on the edge of the tub tears streaming from her eyes. her eyes looked so lost and sad. In her hand she clutched a white envelope with red smears. I took a step closer and thats when I realized that red smears were blood. 

Baby girl what are you doing, whats that?"

She never said a word just looked up at me with the tears in her eyes and reached out the envelope to me. I grabbed it and before I could even look down at it she whispered,

"That envelope changed my life forever."

I looked down and right away reconized it, it was the letter I sent her the day of our wedding.

"Bella..why do you have this, why are you looking at this?"

Instantly it felt like someone sucked all the air out of the room. The look on her face just crushed me and to know I am the cause devestated me. I never seen her look like this,not when she lost Dan or even Kendra. She is lost and broken.

"Baby Girl... Baby Girl dont look at that, why are you looking at it?"

"I cant help it, that one envelope ruined my life all my hopes and dreams are gone because of it."

"Im going to throw this thing out baby girl, I dont want you to ever look at it again."

"It doesnt matter, its not the envelope its what the envelope means. This same piece of paper ruined my entire life and crushed my heart and soul."