Regrets

Pageant II

When my hands dont play its strings the same way. Hmm
I know you will still love me the same

I was just staring at him. Ang ganda ng boses nya. Why do I keep on falling again and again?

Cuz honey your soul would never grow old. Its ever green
And baby your smile's forever in my mind and memory

Im thinking bout how
People fall inlove in mysterious way
Maybe its all part of the plan
Well I just keep on making the same mistake
Hoping that you'll understand

How many times did he pushes me away? How many times did he say that he will never ever love me? How many times did he hurt me?

But baby now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Im thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

But still here I am. Patiently waiting for him

We found love right where we are

And that ended his performance. Pero hindi pa sya bumaba ng stage. He was staring at me.

I come back to my senses when Tita Jhela pushes me. Naalala ko may isa pa nga palang performance kaming gagawin. I can hear my heart beating fast habang papalapit ako sa kanya.

Ang ingay sa paligid. Lahat sila nag hy-hysterical. Nakita ko ang ibang babae na parang anime na naghaheart ang mga mata. Napairap nalang ako. Mga ambisyosa.

Hinawakan ko ang mic then the music played.

Humarap sya sakin at ako?

My eyes were glued to him

I started singing. My Line

There will be no ordinary days for you
If there is someone who cares like I do
You have no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

You don't have to search no more
Cause I am someone who will love you for sure so

Nakakatawa. Kasi yung kanta sakto sa gusto kong sabihin sa kanya. Naramdaman ko nalang ang pag init ng nga mata ko. No Margaux! Not here.

If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

Pilit kong pinipigilan ang sarili kong luha sa pagpatak. Bat ba kasi ako naiiyak? I remember all my sacrifices. One year ko na syang iniintay yet walang improvements. He put the mic closer to his lips. And there he sing his line while looking at me. In my eyes. Hindi ko mabasa ang ekspresyon nya. But I can see clearly in his eyes that theres nothing special. Para bang wala syang nararamdaman.

You can watch sad movies in a different light
So I'll be right there beside you
Hugging you oh so tight (oh so tight)
Your hands will never feel so cold and empty again
Cause I will keep on holding on and won't let go (never let you go)
You don't have to search no more

Sana nga totoo yung kinakanta nya. How I wish he will sing this for me

Cause I am someone who will love you for sure so
If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write better a song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

Its my line again. Wala akong nakikita sa paligid. Sya lang. Si Zylex lang. Ang lalaking mahal na mahal ko

Feel so good when you're around
One smile from you (one smile from you)
Be mine,this feel so right so

And then we sing in chorus.

If we fall in love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in love
We can write better a song than this
If we fall in love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

Pagkatapos na pagkatapos ng kanta ay tumalikod sya sakin at lumayo na.

Narinig ko ang ibat ibang sigawan at palakpakan ng mga tao.

Grabeee! Breath taking! Bagay na bagay sila
Oo nga no? Ngayon ko lang nalaman na magaling palang kumanta si Margaux

Nakakainlove naman silang dalwa
Sana talaga magustuhan narin ni Zylex si Margaux
Siguradong sila na ang mananalo

Napabuntong hininga nalang ako at bumaba narin ng stage. Bumalik ako sa pwesto ko kanina. Sa tabi ni Zylex

Nagkatinginan kami bago umupo. I smiled to him pero iniwas nya lang ang tingin nya.

Inintay lang naming iannounce ang winners.

"Our Ms. Foundation goes to.." pabitin ng emcee. Isinigaw naman ng mga tao kung sino ang gusto nilang manalo. Karamihan ay pangalan ko meron din namang sumisigaw ng iba "Pinabilib nya tayo sa galing nya sa pagrampa. Ang pagbuking ng boses nya na hindi natin inaasahang ganon kaganda. You make us proud of you" tumingin sa akin ang emcee. I just sigh. "Ms. Margaux Xian"

Nang tawagin ang pangalan ko tiningnan ko muna si Tita Jhela then smiled to her. Para naman sa kanya to eh

Tinanggap ko ang flowers na binigay nila. Isinuot ang korona at sash.

"Para naman sa ating Mr. Foundation. Nailabas ang ganda ng boses nya. Napakalakas ng dating nya kahit na mukang tinatamad itong rumampa. Siguro naman kilala nyo na diba?" Nagsigawan ang mga tao. Alam ko na to simula palang. Nakakaagaw kasi ng atensyon ang kagwapuhan nya