my choice

CHAPTER FIVE

A few weeks had passed, and we had slowly planned up of how we were going to make our way to the city. Thankfully, jay had a car something that I lacked. I was learning just how grateful I was that he had been so open with helping me even though it was reckless and how difficult it was going to be to pull off. He had imminently said how his father wouldn't mind him going to the city if he knew where he was. It made me feel jealous with how easy and open he could be with his dad when I couldn't do that anymore with my parents as the main reason, I was going through this was because of them. I hadn't told them anything I had just planned on leaving them a note telling them I was going and to not bother to look for me as I would be better off without them.  It was harsh I knew that, but it was the only way I could think of that showed how angry I was, and I didn't want to lie to them where I was going as I was still to annoyed with them, I was scared I would blurt out I was going to find grandfather and make my place known in the agency.

The day had arrived. Jay was waiting for me down the end of my street as that is what we planned to do as it would have brought to much attention to us both as I hadn't hung out with him until these past weeks, and everyone was confused as to why we had seemed so interested in hanging out with one another after not talking for two years. I had placed the note down on the kitchen counter and picked up the stuff I had packed and with a heavy sign I opened the door and walked out. 

A feeling of guilt flood through me after closing the door and walking towards the gate. No matter how guilty I felt from what I was about to do. I put on my brave face and walked down to where Jay's car was parked. Getting into the car after throwing my things into the back I looked at him and nodded and off we went driving towards the new adventure that was instore for us.  

"you, okay? I know it's probably not easy for you to walk away from your parents like that." he looked at me and back to the road. I didn't realize how easy he was able to read me, that was something I definitely needed to make sure wasn't easy for others if I was going to be a spy." I'm fine. Now we need to talk about how this is going to work, after we arrive to the location what are we going to say. What if my mind goes blank what If he doesn't know who I am and gets us arrested or worse killed!" I said my mind racing a mile a minute it seemed I hadn't thought to make my emotions ease themselves up as no matter how hard I tried to stop my mouth from saying anymore of my worries I felt his hand touch my shoulder "hey take a deep breath. Everything will work out just explain who your mother is and that you heard their conversation that night and you wanted to help."  his voice was soft and comforting It was something I had begun to get used to while planning this whole thing Jay had to deal with a lot of my breakdowns and he helped me feel like everything was going to work out. I took a deep breath and felt a little bit better.  

We were getting closer to the place the text had been sent from. we hadn't spoken a lot during the ride here because it seemed both of us had a lot on our minds about this whole situation, we put ourselves into. I was afraid Jay would turn around and tell me he didn't want to do it anymore and how stupid it was of us to think we could pull this off. But he just kept to himself and was driving forward and closer to where we needed to be. I knew why he was so keen to be involved, he really misses him mother and knowing she was taken, and he could help bring her back to not only him but his father he wouldn't turn around. Then we pulled up to the place, I don't know what I was expecting but I knew I wasn't expecting just a normal house but maybe it looked normal for the people who walked past and when inside it would be so cool and full of all spy technology and leads to an underground office where all the agents were placed. This made me excited.  "let's do it we didn't come all this way to just stare at the place" Jay had grabbed my hand and pulled up to the steps and I was still stuck in a haze like I couldn't move anything even if I wanted too, I heard him sign and he pressed on the doorbell.

I held my breath "this was a mistake wasn't it maybe this is the wrong place, and we just bothered some old lady or something maybe we should-" I was cut off with the door opening looking back to the door I saw the old man that was in my house that night when everything changed for me. "how can I help you." he had said looking at jay and I "I'm here for answers as to why you were in my house talking to my mother about needing her for help and how I deserved to know the truth." I saw his face look shocked and by the sound of the confidence in my voice so was jay, the man who I had become to know as my grandfather had opened the door up and motioned for us to come in. We both looked at each other and walked in he motioned us to sit down in the living room I looked around it seemed it was just a normal house, "so I'm guessing you heard the whole conversation lacy." mike my grandfather had said he picked up a cup that was placed on the coffee table Infront him and took a sip and looked at jay" but I don't know how who you are I'm positive my daughter only had one child." I laughed "this is my friend Jay. his mother worked for the agency before she went missing like all the other spies. Hes here to help find her and help me out." he looked at jay and nodded his eyes showed the sorrow. 

"I'm sorry to hear about your mother i understand why you would want to help. If your family is okay with it, I'll be happy to let you come down to the agency and help with the whole locating of them." After Jay had told him his father was okay with everything he came here to do as his father understood why he was doing it he gave his thanks and then the attention was turned back to me being in the city." they don't know. I told them I was leaving I didn't like being lied to for years and the fact they took this away from me not knowing if I wanted to be involved with this side of the family I want to join, and they aren't going to stop me it's my choice."  I saw mike's face change I didn't know if he was angry or amused, I was able to walk away without my parents noticing me leaving. "you were able to sneak pass my best spy? Maybe your mother was very wrong to keep you from this as you seem to have all the traits needed to become a spy without the training." he said smiling at me. I felt proud. This meant I could show my mother and father I could do this, and I could prove to them how good of a spy I could be.

Then he stood up and started to get his shoes on. "I guess we should make our way over then."  my eyebrows rose in confusion, make our way over to where before I could ask it was like he knew what we were thinking, "the agency. The faster you both learn the ropes the faster you both can help us track and find these agents." we both stood up and joined him walking out of this house he started to walk forwards. Jay had pulled me back next to him so we could discuss everything without mike knowing. "am I the only one that thinks its suspicious how fast he was to let us go down to the agency." He looked back at me and then right back towards the back of my grandfather's head. I understood what he meant of how fast he wanted everything to go. 

"maybe it's because I'm his family? He knows he can trust me?"  but I had this nagging thought in the back of my head thinking that the whole family case wasn't why he was so okay with it happening. I just looked at jay and he shrugged and put his hands in his pockets of his hoodie. We started to catch up with my grandfather, so we stopped talking about it.  next thing I know we are walking up to this big building," here we are I have to go and get your guy's ID sorted out." we nodded and walked over to where a bunch of seats was placed. I started to look around everything was so normal from where we were at this moment in time. It just looked like a company building." already apart of the agency. See this is way too fast I remember as a kid my mum telling me stories about how long and difficult the process is for you to get into the agency.  this can't be because of family connections." I signed I didn't want to believe I was being screwed over again by my family. But Jay was right it was moving way to fast, and it was unfair for the other agents and other waiting and going through the training process. "your right this is fishy. I just I really don't want to find out something else about my family Ive already had to deal with the fact they've been lying to me for years and when I finally think Ive got to the end of it more suspicious things happen."  he smiled his soft looking smile and put on a reassuring smile on and began to look back to where we saw my grandfather go," if we find out something else then we get up and we go back, and home and I'll be with you every step of the way and I'm sure my dad wouldn't  mind you staying at mine for as long as you want or until you're ready to face your parents again." i was thankful I had someone like Jay in my life. After finding everything out I was afraid I was going to be alone and wouldn't be able to tell everyone, but I could trust Jay his family was the same thing, and he could see where I was coming from. He was amazing and never made me feel bad about thinking and feeling the way I felt.