my choice

CHAPTER NINETEEN

Looking back at the house, I felt such a foreign feeling inside me. I hadn't been here in months and being back here made me think how everything had changed.
" come on your mother is probably waiting to see you. You gave  her a heart attack with the phone call and crying." My father rubbed his hand on my back and walked inside the house while carrying my bags. Nodding I walked in the house. In those short steps I couldn't help but worry about what would happen when I got inside. Walking into the kitchen it had given me flashbacks to when I used to walk home from school to talk about my day with my mother.
" hey are you alright? Want a drink something to eat?" I heard the soft worried voice of my mother and I missed it. Tears welled up in my eyes and I immediately pulled my mother into a hug.
One thing I've realised it how much we need mothers in our lives. They are always there no matter what you do they support you and make sure your save. No one can compare to a mother's love. And I was stupid to run away from this because I wanted to be a spy and I wanted to show how I could do this, I wish I had stayed home.
" I'm okay I swear. It got to much. I felt like I was letting myself down and showing you both I couldn't do this." I said when we all had been sitting around the kitchen table. I had been home for an hour now. I had told them about jay and him finding his mother I told them about Amanda and everything. I left out some things as even if I missed them and came back home it didn't mean I trusted them.
" sweetie, we didn't think you wasn't capable of doing this. We just didn't want to see you get hurt. We had to see so many of our friends end up hurt and your father saw me hurt millions of times it's hard to deal with." Hearing them say this I realised something, they didn't keep it from me because they thought I was weak or couldn't handle it. They wanted to protect me from how scary and unpredictable everything in the agency was. One thing I have now learned was that if I hadn't gone and seen the stuff I saw I wouldn't of believed them now. But I did. Jay had saw me get hurt and we had fallen out, sure we made up quickly but we still fell out over one tiny injury.
" there is something I need to ask you. Just you mum." She looked at me and nodded and turned towards my dad and gave him the " girl talk leave"  face and my dad smiled and walked out the room not without a " good to see you again kid." Mother looked at me with such care I felt bad that I was going to start interrogating her on the spot but I needed to find out why she hadn't helped after almost being taken.
" Jay found files about you. It said you was almost taken. Why didn't you do anything? You had to of seen something that would of helped end the case years ago. What happened what did you see?" Her eyes still held that soft look. She signed and put her hands on the table and started to play about with her fingers.Once again giving me flashbacks, from when she first told me what she kept from me.

" I shouldn't be telling you this. I got told to keep my mouth shut. But I suppose I can tell you as you aren't going back to the agency and I'm sure you will understand why I kept my mouth shut and left when I did when I tell you.
I had been looking for an agent like always, I heard a noise. I couldn't call for backup as I had went alone. Your father knew I was there and was hooked up to me so if I got into danger he could get someone to arrive to help. But at the time everything went down no one was there.
I walked in the room and I saw the agent I was looking for she was with a man who also worked at the agency.I remember asking why are they here. They started to scatter. They left behind a paper and I read it and it explained their plan. To take agents to get away from their live of working for Mike so they could have a family without the hassle of their child having to train.
I took it to Mike to show him they had been behind everything. We had the evidence and we could take them down now. He told me no, and that it couldn't be them and I was making things up as I was getting bored of the agency and wanted something new. But I knew he had known. He had believed me but something made him not tell me.
But after that I saw how messed up the agency was. I had gotten to the end of the case but it was kept a secret. And people was still trying desperately to find the agents who was ' taken' and to even find the people that caused all this havoc. One day I got a note. It was threatening me. They knew I was pregnant with you. They threatened to harm me to harm you if I told anyone. So I packed my things and me and your father left, we was already planning on doing it when I had told Mike but knowing someone was going to do something to keep themselves safe made me scared I couldn't of done anything i was pregnant it wasn't a risk I would of took"

I was shocked. I had been so rude to my parents even though they had been forced to leave. They wanted to protect me from the beginning from those agents that mother had caught. I wanted to ask more question as to why grandfather didn't want people to know about the two agents but, that wasn't the first question that came out of my mouth.
" who are the two agents? Because we had to find two agents recently and things went south it was my first mission."
My mother looked me in the eye and said
" Jack Andrew and Mary kin."
The people that I was supposed to save that day was the people that caused so much for my family. And the people that threatened to harm me and my mother..
I needed to tell Jay