𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭, 𝐛𝐥𝐮𝐞𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 » 𝐩 𝐨 𝐞 𝐭 𝐫 𝐲

𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮

Everything they said about heartbreaks,
Suddenly seems so true,
My once gleaming, gleeful eyes are now just swollen,
Always tinted with a red hue

Thank you for breaking me,
You’ve made me weaker, yet stronger,
You’ve hurt me so much, I hate you,
But I still want you

Would everything have been different,
If I had stripped myself bare of my ego,
And tried to patch up,
Would you still be there for me?

But it’s no use now,
I can’t reverse the irreversible, cruel time,
I can only painfully reminisce our memories and cry,
Maybe, just maybe, that’s how we were meant to be

I’m sorry for pushing you away,
But the catch here is,
That instead of staying,
You just drifted away

You lured me, possessed me,
Just like a moth is drawn to flame,
And I complied,
Like a lovesick fool I was

I may have convinced myself to forget you,
But deep down,
I know that I can never truly let go of you,
For you were a really important part of my life,
And perhaps, will always be

You’re happy,
And I’m sad,
Sad because you are happy,
Seems like you forgot me

Seems like you’ve let go of me easily,
And gotten over me,
Maybe you have someone new in your life,
It hasn’t even been a week

Was I worthless to you?
Worthless to the point,
Where my absence doesn’t bother you anymore,
Or do you secretly miss me too?

You have no idea,
How helpless I was,
When you had left me,
But I’m fine now

Hope you’re happy,
NO, I WANT YOU TO BE SAD NOW THAT I’M GONE,
My hands shake,
I have anxiety attacks

I hate you,
But I love you so much,
I wish that you’ll miss me a tiny bit,
Or just be happy at the memories we created

Thanks to you,
I don’t only look like a mess,
I feel like one,
Now that you’re gone

All those smiles in the mirrors,
Aren’t even true anymore,
They are just fake assurances,
That I’ll be fine

You know how I feel?
Like a pathetic loser,
Who has lost everything,
Thanks to you

I have let you go,
But that doesn’t mean,
That I don’t cry for you,
Or that I don’t miss you

I wish I had the courage,
To put aside my ego,
To text you,
And say a SIMPLE sorry

Can’t you text me instead?
Can’t you say sorry once?
Yeah I get it,
This is the end of us

No matter where you are,
No matter who’s in your life right now,
Or who will later be,
I will always want you

~𝖯𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗅

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