What is love?

Chapter 84

DAWN
I didn't actually want to see him yet kasi medyo lumalaki na tiyan ko but not that noticeable to others I sent some photos to Tine she said it's not that noticeable yet but for me I can see it. The other reason I'm here is becuase I'm hiding all my pre-natal vitamins and things. Bumili nadin ako ng mga pregnancy clothes ko buti nalang he respected my decision that he can't go here yet even though ang shitty ng excuse ko, but after hearing his voice a while ago it was full of pain and sadness that's how I know I had to see him. I don't know what time Richard will be here, I don't even know if he will come here but nevertheless I'll be waiting.

are you sure you're finishing na ha-C
oo nga kulit mo talaga Mr. Borromeo-D (carl constantly calls me to check if I'm really doing work)
baka mamaya magka cuddke na pala kayo ni Richard diyan ah, ew erase ko nga yung thought na yun-C (I know he shuddered)
HAHAHA, ano ano kasi iniisip mo eh-D
*I started walking downstairs to get some snack*
you can't blame me naman eh parang sakanya na umiikot mundo mo-C
At diyan ka nagkakamali Carl-D
*the light on the deck caught my attention*
ako pa mali eh yang sculpture mo na typically weeks mo lang ginagawa tumagal ngayon-C
*I slowly walked towards the door*
Carl, parang may tao sa deck namin-D (I whispered)
Ha? TUMAWAG KA PULIS, TAWAGAN MO ASAWA MO-c
*i saw him sitting on the top of the stairs, I hugged myself kasi I know that silhouette*
Carl, I have to go-D
no, Dawn call someo.....-D (binabaan ko na siya)

I slowly opened the door and let the sea breeze in, the sea was rough just like the man in front of me. He has a bottle of whiskey next to him, another air swept and my night gown flew with it "shit" I muttered patting it back down when I looked back up he was looking at me absentmindedly. I walked towards him there was no hi or any reaction on his part, so I sat next to him. He took a deep breath and looked back at the horizon "do you want me here?" I asked, he just nodded. He faced me while taking a sip of his drink "inom tayo" he said. I can't "next time nalang ako" I answered "minsan lang naman tayo uminom eh" he traced my lips with his thumb. He was intoxicated and he's intoxicating me with his presence, I took the glass and  sipped, I made a face I hate whiskey.

He chuckled and looked back at the ocean, "I don't think I can do this" My head turned towards him "which one?" Our marriage ba Richard? Kasi hindi pwede mamamatay ako pag mawawala ka sakin. He faced me again and slowly leaned "not you, of course" yep, I can definitely smell the alcohol. "Then what?" I gravitated closer to his warm body, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes "ayaw ko na maging mayor" he slowly faced me with a fake smile plastered on his face. If there's one thing I know about Richard it's that he never gives up, something must have happened "do you want to talk about it?" I want him to let me in his problems right now so I can ease his mind. "No" he whispered, I'll respect his decision as much as he respects my decisions "mahal na mahal kita" he said. I know you've told me a million times but you still built a new wall to surround yourself from whatever this is.

"Right back at ya" I rested my head on his shoulder, he turned his face towards me and bit his lip looking at my eyes and back to my lips. I knew right then and there that he needs me.... all of me, when he started kissing me senselessly I knew it would lead to something deeper. Our carnal instincts making me feel more secure in our Marriage. He only wants you Dawn, my brain keeps on telling me. Couple more days have gone by and we're actually in Manila, we had to rendezvous with Carl ahead of the competition and Richard's cast will finally be taken off. We're at the hospital dumiretso na kami dito excited na siyang matanggal cast niya.

Von -D
Hmmm, bakit ka tumatawag-V
We're in Manila-D
You are???-V (he screamed)
Yes, yes, is.... mama and papa there? -D
Oo naman no andito yung dalawang matanda-V
Fuck, oh okay tell them we'll be there okay, bye-D