We Are Titans

Chapter 5- Tequila

This chapter is taking over right where the other left off.

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I fell asleep shortly after turning off the TV.

*Dream*

"Don't do this Grant, please don't do this, not again." I panic

"I'm sorry Nicole, but it's for the best." He nods at the agent.

The agent runs a sharp blade down my torso. I scream in agony while my eyes begin to burn. He stops. I catch my breath and wipe my sweat on my arm. I was hanging from my arms the chains rubbed against my skin, rubbing it raw. Grant nods again and the agent runs his blade around my hip. "No you son of a bitch I'll kill you! I'll kill you you son of a bitch! I'll kill you!" He stops and I breathe out heavy spit and sweat flying out as my teeth grit in pain and I continue breathing heavy. Grant nods and the agent walks around behind me.

He buries his knife in my back and drags all the way down. I scream the loudest I ever had, my eyes rolled back. 

*Reality*

I wake up screaming and jump out of my bed still in pain. I take off my shirt and press down where he had cut. 

"Hey, Hey calm down you're okay." I continue to breathe heavily still running my hands across my back. "Hey look at me. You're okay it was just a nightmare, you're fine." My breathing quickens and I find myself struggling to breathe. "I-I.. can't... I can't breathe.." She crouches down in front of me grabbing my head. "Hey, Nicole calm down. Nicole look at me.." I look up at her no longer reaching for my wounds. "Nicole.. listen to me Nicole. You're having a panic attack." I try to move away to catch air but I can't. "Nicole breathe with me... breathe with me." She begins to take deep breaths, and I try to do the same. After a few minutes I can finally breathe. Steve bursts through the door looking around until his eyes land on me. He runs to me Natasha close behind him. 

"What happened? Why is she on the floor?" Wanda looks to Steve concern still across her face. "She was having a nightmare and woke up in a panic attack." Steve comes over to me concerned. "I'm fine Steve it was just a nightmare I promise." Steve doesn't move. "I'm fine guys really." Natasha and Wanda nod but Steve still doesn't budge. "I'm fine I promise..." Steve nods but doesn't move. "Natasha please take my brother back to his room and convince him that I'm okay." she smiles and nods she begins to drag him out the door to their room. "You can call me Nat you know." I laugh lightly and shake my head. Wanda sits back down in front of me. "I know you're not fine. What happened?" I look down at the floor and run my hands through my hair. "It was Hydra. My second year there I was on missions. I failed one of them and the punishment was these.." I put my knees down and left her see the scars on my torso. Some of them were covered by tattoos, but they were still noticeable. She looks at them with pity and regret lightly painting her face. "None of these combined were as bad as the one going down my spine." Worry crosses her. I put my hands on the ground to spin myself around. Under my Katana tattoo was a scar that ran up and down my spine. "The first time they cut me there.. I didn't break. It hurt worse than the cigarette burns but it wasn't nearly as terrible as the second time." I hear her sniffle "But the second time, I wanted to die.. It was the only time they could break me. They went deeper than the first time.. It felt like I was being ripped apart by wolves." I put my head down "after that day.. I was never fazed by any pain. Nothing hurt anymore." The silence was unbearable, but she finally spoke. "Can I?" I thought for a second, confused. But the I understood, and I gave a slight nod. She slowly reached to place her hand on my back. I flinched, and my body tensed, but slowly relaxed when she fully place her hand on the top of my tattoo. I sat up straight as her hand passed over the back of my sports bra sending chills up my back. She slowly reached around to my stomach tracing every scar along the way. The more scars she touched, the more my eyes filled with tears. When there was none left to trace my tears threatened to fall. She didn't move here hands for a few seconds, but finally wrapped her arms around me tightly. I take a deep breath in attempt to suck back the tears in my eyes. Her legs surround mine as she scoots closer pulling our bodies together. I clench my jaw tightly. She rested her head on my shoulder, and i shut my eyes letting only one tear go.