We Are Titans

Chapter 25- Going

I'm sorry :(

Warning: Mature content, language, and violence.

Some information in the story is not factual. Do not quote me on these.

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I woke up in Lena's car. It was 8 in the morning, and we were pulling into the DEO parking garage. "Good morning." I sigh. No it wasn't I remember everything that happened last night and I regret every part of it. "I hate myself." She nods "So you remember what happened?" I nod "I'm such an idiot." She laughs "Yes you are." I stay quiet, even as we park.

"She'll forgive you Nic. She will I know it." She grabs my hand giving it a squeeze as we walk into the building. "What makes you say that?" She shrugs "I see the way she looks at you. It's the way I look at Kara." I smile. Kara and Lena have been together since I met them. I always wanted my relationship to be as healthy as theirs, but I always manage to screw something up. "She wouldn't let anything get in the way of being with you. Especially not some stupid fight you got into when you were drunk." I sigh "That's the thing Lena..." She looks at me confused. "The fight started before I got drunk. I wouldn't let go of her, so she slapped me, and of course my dumbass walks away. Nothing came out of my mouth. I just walked away. She tried apologizing when we were in the room, but I was so pissed off at myself to let her." She shook her head "You have got to stop doing that." I furrow my eyebrows. "You always walk away. You're good to go with fight or flight when a confrontation is physical, you always fight. But when you're having an emotional confrontation, especially with Wanda, you leave. Your first reflex is to run....." I cross my arms. Is this really what she thought of me? "I'm not saying it's your fault Nic. Matter of fact, I would probably do the same if I went through everything you did. But is that fair to her? I get that you're trying not to snap at her, but it's what she needs. I know I would rather Kara let out all her frustrations when she can instead of bottling it all up." I don't say anything, just listen. "Anger is not the only way to show her what you're thinking, but if you keep it all inside it's going to keep building. It'll build until one day you just can't hold it in anymore.... If that day comes I guarantee you will lose a part of her, and you will hate yourself for it." I take a deep breath before facing forward. We continued walking into the building, silence filling the air as I walk in my thoughts.

"Hey!" Kara glances between the two of us, her smile growing wider to see that we're back to being friends. Her smile drops "Oh Nic. I saw Wanda walking out of the bathroom just a few seconds ago, you should go talk to her before she goes back to sleep." I take another deep breath to prepare, and turn to Lena "No more running." She smiles, and gives me an approving nod when I walk away. I walked down the hall quickly, but when I got to the door I couldn't bring myself to open it. After a while of staring at my hand as it sat on the door knob, I finally opened the door. "Princess?" She lifted her head to look at me, and then put it back down almost immediately. I shut the door behind me and walk to the foot of the bed, hoping that she would say something. She doesn't, instead she lifts the covers on my side, allowing me to join her. I moved slowly onto the bed, hoping not to piss her off any more than she already was. My thoughts over take me as I lay directly in front of her. After a while I finally open my mouth to speak, but she stops me. "Don't... don't say anything. Let's just lay here for a while enjoying each other's company." I nod, looking around to avoid asking a question that I want so badly to be answered. My mouth opens a few times to try and speak, but I close it each time. I didn't want to piss her off, but I failed. She frustratedly exhaled "What?" I tilt my head, finally getting the chance to ask her "Can we cuddle?" She smiled "Yes." 

I moved closer excitedly, wrapping my arms around her, and tucking my leg between hers. So much was on my mind, and I wanted to say it all, but I didn't want to ruin the moment. "I'm sorry." I furrow my eyebrows, looking down at her. "Uh for what?" She took a deep breath "For slapping you, dancing with some guy I barely know, and throwing a margarita in your face, but mostly for shutting the door instead of going after you." I move my body to be face to face with her. "Don't apologize for any of that. Well maybe the margarita, it tasted terrible..." She laughed, now looking into my eyes. "But I shouldn't have grabbed you the way I did. You had every right to slap me, and I'm sorry that I left instead of saying that." She nodded against me. "I was such an ass last night." She laughs again "Yeah, you were." I scoff "Whatever..." We laugh together, my apology coming. "I shouldn't have said those things, even if I was drunk." She moved her head back to look me in the eyes. "You're my Princess, and you deserve the world." Her smile grows wide "That was very cute." I grin childishly "I promise to try and talk more about how I'm feeling." She nods "Thank you Baby."