I kinda feel bad because I was judging him for how he does females but I never really understood why until now.
I see why most niggas just hoe around and don't get attached. That's because bitches like his ex.
After what we talked about and shit Carter really a cool ass dude. I fuck with him and to be honest, I like him. I liked him before, but knowing how real he is and what's really been going on with him, makes me wanna love on him and show him not all girls are the same.
But we would have to take it extremely slow if we was to ever date. I don't wanna feel like a rebound you know ?
"Carterrrrrr don't be sad, you gone find a girlfriend one day" I pout.
"What I tell you about saying my governm- you know what ? you get a pass" He chuckles.
"Of course I do. Because guess what ?" I smile.
"What mamas ?" He asked.
Lowkey made me blush but we gone ignore that.
"We bestiesssssss" I smile hard.
"Oh for real ?? You friend zoning a nigga now" he smirked.
"We gotta be friends before we date" I wink and smile.
"Yeah aight youngin" he smirked and licked his lips.
He so damn sexy fuckkkkkk. His ass make me wanna sit on his face damn
Lei
"I been goin' through some changes with myself Bad decisions got me questionin' myself No, don't you pity me, I don't need no help" I sang Queen Naija's "Trial and Error"
I've always questioned myself about myself...like why am I this way? Why aren't I open or willing to tell people my feelings, but I never got a answer.
I know I'm 12 and I'm kinda young to be feeling like this but I been through a lot that nobody knows about.
I don't smile, I barely laugh or talk.
Honestly I hate myself, I feel disgusting.
Maybe that's why nobody likes or wants me.
I felt a tap on my shoulder interrupting my negative thoughts and I took out one of my AirPods.
"Yes?" I said unbothered.
"You wanna work together on this project ? It's about the endocrine system." This girl asked.
She was so pretty, like wow...somebody pretty is actually talking to me ?
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People barely even notice me...I was shocked.
"Uh yeah.." I said awkwardly not really knowing what to say.
"I'm cool, I'm an introvert too. You seem like a pretty cool person too and maybe we can be friends or best friends or something ?" She said in a polite tone.
"Is this like a set up or something ? Do you really wanna be my friend or did people dare you to do this" I mugged her. I didn't mean to be rude Im just scared of people talking to me because I feel like they gone judge me.
"No everybody had a partner and I saw you sitting alone. We both have something in common because we don't talk much, that's why I figured it was a good idea to come and talk to you" she frowned feeling offended a little.
"I'm sorry it's just I'm scared of making friends sorry" I calmed my temper down.
"It's ok girl, we cool ?" She asked with a smile.
"Yeah we cool" I nod and made a closed mouth smile.
Maybe this could be my shot at having a potential friendship with someone.
