flower boy ~ yuwin

thirteen

"hey.. i'm proud of you for telling him.." lucas whispered, holding a crying sicheng in his arms. yuta just sat on the chair across the room, as he didnt know if sicheng really wanted him to leave or not.

he really couldnt do anything. he didnt think sicheng had even noticed he was in the room, as he presumed he had gone home.

"i've r-ruined it..."

yuta shook his head, and begun to speak, "you havent ruined anything, sicheng.."

"i-i... i thought you go home?" the boy turned around, confused. yuta shook his head, smiling sadly.

"i wasn't going to leave you.." he told him, standing up and moving closer to sicheng, sitting on the other side of him.

sicheng didnt move closer. he just stayed frozen. lucas frowned, placing his hand on the boy's shoulder, "sicheng-ah... you're alright. me and yuta are here for you."

"i w-wish i wasnt like this.."

yuta looked away, trying to hold himself together for the sake of his lover. he felt his body slowly shifting towards him, which made him feel a little better.

"sicheng please dont say that.." the japanese said gently into his ear. he was calming down now, but yuta had to leave soon, and all he wanted to do was cry.

"i'm... im s-so sorry, yuta.." sicheng suddenly spoke, looking up at him, "i... snapped.. i shouldnt be mean like i was."

lucas shook his head, knowing sicheng wasnt mean, but he let yuta comfort him, "you weren't mean to me, chengie.. not at all.. it's okay."

"i was."

yuta wiped sicheng's tear again, and placed a finger over his red lips, that were sore from his messy breathing, "no, my love.... i cant say i get how it feels, but i understand it would feel so hard. i'm not going to leave you, and im definitely not mad at you. i'm here for you."

sicheng listened, yawning softly as the boy spoke to him. lucas stretched, taking a sip from his drink and agreeing with the eldest.

"please... stop thinking like this, alright?" yuta told him, stroking his hair, "i think you just need to sleep tonight, okay?"

lucas agreed once more, before putting his cup of water near the boy's mouth. they both watched fondly as sicheng took the cup, taking small sips from it.

"good boy, well done." lucas praised, lifting up his messy hair and checking his temperature. he was pretty warm, but he was sure it was just from the stress, and wrapping himself in a cocoon all day.

"how about you let yuta take you to bed?" lucas suggested. sicheng nodded, cuddling upto yuta, "i think that would be a good idea.."

yuta agreed too, and lifted sicheng off of him.

"goodnight lucas.." sicheng sighed, hugging the taller. lucas hugged back and shot a smile to him, "m'sleepy..." he mumbled, walking back towards yuta and grabbing his hand.

watching as sicheng dragged his feet across the floor,  yuta nodded, "i can see that."

sicheng giggled sadly, guiding the latter to his bedroom.

"c-can you stay with me?" sicheng asked, getting into his bed. yuta had to say no,  but it broke his heart to do so.

"im sorry, i have to get home, baby.." he told him, tucking him in and pushing his hair out of his face, "i can wait here until you fall asleep if you'd like that?"

sicheng pouted, but nodded, motioning for yuta to cuddle him for a moment. ofcourse yuta obeyed, and laid next to the boy carefully, comforting him, "i'd like that.."

"remember everything i told you, okay angel? i'm here and i'm never leaving," yuta whispered, sitting up slightly so they were face to face, "you're so special to me. i couldnt even imagine wanting to do anything of the sort."

sicheng giggled as yuta tapped his nose. their faces got closer until their foreheads were touching.

closing his eyes, sicheng yawned delicately, "i sleep..."

"alright, go to sleep baby," yuta agreed, but before he moved, he placed a hand on his cheek and smiled, "kiss?"

nodding, sicheng moved in a tiny bit closer, letting the boy kiss his lips again, "mm.... i like."

"i like you, sichengie," yuta teased, before sitting up and caressing his face, "goodnight my love. i'll stay here for a while, i promise."

-

"he's fast asleep.." yuta yawned, walking downstairs to lucas still sat on the couch, but the boy seemed to be staring into space, drinking his coffee, "are you alright?"

"hm? yeah, i'm okay," he laughed, "i'm just exhausted, that's all."

"long day at work?" the older asked, to get a nod and a laugh from the latter, "you should go to bed soon too.."

"yeah, dont worry about me," lucas told him, "i have a few things to do but then i'll for sure be heading off to bed, believe me."

they laughed quietly together. lucas sighed, looking towards yuta, "are you okay?"

yuta shrugged, "i dont know...."

"i know how it feels. i didnt know for a while either, but believe me, it hurt when i found out.." he explained, "if you ever wanna talk, just me and you, please just text me, okay."

yuta nodded, taking another deep breath to contain himself.

"thank you for not leaving sicheng.. i know ive said this already but i couldn't thank you enough."

"no worries. believe me, i'd never do that."

the two sat in comfortable silence for a moment as they took some time to catch up on their own thinking, until lucas spoke again.

"you two... is it love?"

yuta just laughed and shrugged, "i'd... i mean, i'd like to think so... and if it isnt yet, then it's what im wishing for i guess."

"that's adorable... i just want you to know- and you cant tell him i told you- but everytime he comes back from hanging out with you, he gushes his entire heart out about you..." lucas whispered, "it's the cutest."

"man..." yuta smiled, blushing slightly, " i'd be lying if i said i didnt do the same.."

lucas chuckled, "well, i'm glad you found eachother....."

silence again. the moon was bright, illuminating the dimly lit room more than the small lamp in the corner was. it was comforting and calm.

"do you want me to take you home?"

yuta shook his head, "nah, i'll be okay."

"are you sure?"

"almost certain."

-

yuta: good morning baby

yuta: it's 10pm as im writing this but hopefully you wont see it until the morning.

yuta: i hope you have a good day. i might be able to come over later in the day, but i can't guarantee anything :(

yuta: <33 text me when you're awake

a/n angst is currently my favourite thing to write but god its so sad and emotional man