Never forget you

Chapter 37: Knight

Her mouth drops open as her eyes widen. A gasp leaving her lips as she stares at me with a blank expression. Anger boils up inside of me and I force myself to stand up and pace before I go punching something. My hands find my hair, yanking so hard I'm sure there will be a bald spot. Minutes go by as she just stares at me. I can't take it anymore.

"Answer me dammit!"

Skye blinks as if she's just coming back to reality before she stands up abruptly throwing her arms around.

"What the fuck are you talking about?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about don't fucking play dumb!"

"Clearly I fucking don't so why don't you enlighten me, asshole!"

I take a few steps toward her closing the distance until I'm in her face. "The night we first slept together. Four years ago. I saw you!"

"Saw me what?!" She yells in my face, the heat of her breath spanning across my mouth. My fists tighten at my sides as I try to subdue my anger.

"I saw you fucking hooking up with him in the snack bar! You said you were getting us stuff and when I finished in the bathroom I went to go find you. Surprise you. But boy, oh boy, was I surprised when I saw you making out with your fucking side piece while I was supposed to be waiting on you."

Skye takes a step back as if I just slapped her, her eyes wide in disbelief. Yeah, bet you didn't think you'd get caught. "You fucking lied to me, Skye! I thought that we were.... I thought I.... I thought it meant something!" I swallow over the lump in my throat and hope she didn't hear the crack in my voice as I bellowed out the words.

My eyebrows push together when she starts laughing. Not a little laugh but a full blown-out laugh. I snarl, clenching my fist and wanting to punch the shit out of something. Why in the fuck is she laughing at me!

"You've got to be fucking kidding me, right?"

I raise one eyebrow at her. "Wow. So you're just going to act like it's no big deal?" I scoff at her, "Damn, I guess I was really wrong about you."

In an instant she's standing up straight giving me a death glare. "You're a fucking prick you know that? Let's get something straight. I never hooked up with Ian four years ago."

"I fucking saw you!"

She scoffs this time. "What you saw was him trying to force himself on me before I kneed him in the balls," she shakes her head before closing her eyes before returning them to me with so much hate. "Besides. You're one to fucking talk."

"Excuse me?" I ground out.

"God, you're such a fucking hypocrite it's ridiculous. What? So, because I'm a girl it's a horrible fucking thing to go hookup with someone right after we were together-which by the way didn't even fucking happen- but it's okay for you to fucking do it because you're a guy? Double standards are shit, Knight!"

"I only fucking hooked up with Maddie because I saw you with Ian!" I want to question how she even knows about that but I'm too angry at the moment. I want to rip Ian's throat out and I never would have even touched Maddie if I knew the truth.

"'Cause that makes it so much better?" she screams at me, her voice carrying all around us even despite the noise from the races bellow.

"I never would have touched her if I knew the truth!"

"But you did! You fucking did! Right after we were together you decided to ruin everything we ever had, everything we ever were, just to get back at me! The only difference is mine wasn't on purpose!"

I take a step back at her words feeling like she just sucker punched me. But I thought she did do it on purpose that's the only reason I went to Maddie. I needed something to get my mind off her. Something-someone- to numb the pain but it didn't work. The moment we got too far all I could see was Skye and the pit in my stomach grew bigger and bigger. I couldn't go through with it, I couldn't betray her no matter how bad she hurt me.

"I didn't know that! You can't fault me for that when I didn't know." My voice begins to crack, the sadness and pain seeping through the anger breaking all my defensive mechanisms. Skye takes a step back, glancing away and back down at the track. She takes a deep breath shaking her head. When she looks back at me I see unshed tears in her eyes and my heart clenches. A pain fills my chest and it takes everything in me not to grab at it to ease the hurt.

When she talks her voice sounds so broken that I almost fall to my knees. "It doesn't matter, Knight. Because even if I did do it on purpose all that happened between me and Ian was a kiss. A kiss that I stopped. A kiss that made me sick to my stomach, running back to our spot sobbing wanting you to hold me. To kiss me and wipe all evidence away. But you know what I found instead?"

My eyes widen at knowing what she's about to say. "I found you. Half naked with Maddie. In our spot. The spot that we had just made love in mere minutes before. The spot that we shared all our important memories together. The spot that was ours." Tears begin to fall from her eyes but she bats them away angrily. "You fucked her in our spot, Knight! Ian only kissed me but you....you slept with Maddie right after you slept with me!" Her voice turns ice cold as she spits the words at me.

I'm frozen in place, her words taking a few minutes to digest but my silence gives her the wrong impression. Skye shakes her head before turning on her heel and leaving. She's almost out of sight when I scream, "I never slept with Maddie!"

She stops, turning around slowly she lets out a rigid breath. "What?"

Taking a few steps toward her I repeat myself. "I never slept with Maddie."

Skye shakes her head, her eyes drifting down to the grass beneath our feet. "But I... I saw-"

I cut her off. "You saw what was about to happen but you didn't see what actually happened." Her blue eyes glance up to mine. Her usual crystal blue now navy. I shake my head. "I couldn't go through with it. All I saw was you. Us. I pulled away and left. I went back to my cabin, punched the wall and cried."

Her eyes dance between mine as she looks for any doubt. She won't find any, I'm telling her the truth. I wait for her to say something. Anything. We've been living four years with what we thought happened that night only to find out we were both wrong. We wasted time. We fucked up.

I take a step closer to her grinning when I hear her small gasp. Skye shakes her head as I'm about to touch her to pull her close. "I...No." She looks me straight in the eyes, shakes her head and then turns running away from me. I stand there watching as she disappears into the woods, down the path toward our cars. My heart drops to my stomach but it's not sadness I feel its anger. I'm angry that we jumped to conclusions. Angry that we left each other four years ago. Angry that we lost so much time between us because we were too scared to fucking talk to each other. And I'm fucking furious that after all of that, after learning the truth, Skye just fucking walked away.