Never forget you

Chapter 38: Skye

Groaning I roll over and slam the button of my alarm to silence it. My eyes remain shut like they have for the past few days while I wonder if there could be a way for me to stay in bed all day but have my teachers still mark me as present and get my work done. No dice. So after another groan, a throw of the blankets over my head and a silent scream, I drag my ass out of my warm comfy bed.

Ever since my talk with Knight I've felt off. Not off, just...I don't know what the hell to think anymore. I went four years hating him. Four years mourning what we could have been. Mourning the friendship we had and the dealing with the pain and heartbreak that he caused me. Four years of shutting myself off to any other guy because I didn't want to fall and have them do the exact same thing to me. Four fucking years of wasted feelings.

Dragging myself into the bathroom I stare at the reflection in front of me. She looks like me or rather a shell of me. Everything I thought I knew was flushed down the toilet and I haven't been able to figure out what to do with it. How to approach it. How to fucking act now.

Knight and I can't just go back to the way we were before any of this happened. We can't go back to being friends. Can't go back to being together. To loving each other. But why not? It's not like you ever stopped loving him. The little voice says in my head and I want to scream at her to shut the fuck up bitch but instead I close my eyes and head into the shower.

I let the warm water wash away all of my feelings and doubts. All of the voices in my head screaming at me to just fucking deal. But I can't. Not yet. I've been through too much already to have my heart broken again. I don't even know what I want anymore. If what I want is him. Is us. I need to figure that shit out before I go getting neck deep into this.

Stepping out of the shower I wrap myself in a fluffy white towel and head to my room to get ready. Twenty minutes later I'm dressed in my black ripped skinny jeans, Metallica T-shirt with a black and red thermal to keep me warm. I've thrown on my moms red converse and my lucky choker. When I head downstairs I toss on a black beanie before heading into the kitchen to grab some toast.

Aunt Lacey eyes me up as I walk over to the toaster to plop in the bread. I haven't told her anything but she's not blind. She knows somethings up but she hasn't pushed and I'm grateful for that.

She takes a sip of her coffee before talking over her mug. "Martin made a late stop here last night."

I spin around so fast I almost give myself whiplash. "For real?" I squeak out and Aunt Lace just smiles before nodding.

"Yup. Made sure I was home after my shift so we could surprise you," she smirks leaning into her bag on the table and letting a pair of keys hang from her fingers. Chills run down my spine as I see my dads little metal car keychain hanging. "Your baby is back and in garage nice and safe."

I nearly jump over the island to get to my keys but aunt Lacey pulls them back before my fingers can grasp them. I pout like a child. She gives me a stern look staring me straight in the eyes. "Are you going to tell me what actually happened?"

I let out a huff closing my eyes and leaning back. Ugh! Why does she have to be nosy now! When I open my eyes back up I give her a tight smile, almost guilty. "No?" My shoulders tense as I wait for her response.

Lacey closes her eyes letting out a heavy sigh. When she opens them she gives me a tight nod before slowly handing my keys back over to me. "Fine. But so help me if something happens to this car again, Skye Elizabeth Davis, I will find out everything and there will be hell to pay. Do you understand me."

It's not a question. It's a statement. I can se sit in her eyes. I smile and before she can even blink I'm rounding the island and throwing my arms around her body in a tight hug. "I love you Aunt Lacey."

She hugs me back tighter, kissing my hair like she said my mom always used to do before whispering, "I love you too, sweet girl."

A stray tear falls from my eyes and I let it. It feels right in this moment. This is a mother daughter moment and she's giving me that. Giving me her but also a piece of my mom. I squeeze her a little tighter before pulling away and walking over to collect my toast. There's a pep in my step now that I've got my baby back and I quickly add peanut butter to my toast before sticking it in my mouth and giving Lacey a kiss goodbye.

Like any other day this week I make my normal pit stop at Starbucks, collect my coffee and ignore that knots in my stomach as I pull into the school parking lot. Not much unnerves me but Knight Thomas did all that when he through me with his truth. The past few days we've avoided each other. Our stares lingering. Unspoken words passing between us. Our eyes locked and unmoving every time we see each other. When we're in class together it's like a heavy current between us but we both ignore it. Both keep our heads down. But I can't help my mind from wandering. From dreaming. Because what would happen if we just let it all go and start a new?

Would Knight take me right there in a classroom again? Would he thrust into me until I'm screaming at the top of my lungs not giving a damn who heard? Would he throw me against a locker and kiss me, own me, for all to see? Would he stake a claim? Or would we still be where we are? At a stand still. Not talking. Not being in each other's lives.

My mind swirls with possibilities. Aches with questions. But I have a moment of relief when I get out of my car and a familiar husky voice greets me. "Oh, ho, ho. Looks like you got the whip back, baby doll."

"Can you still handle the power between your legs?" From another voice.

"Oh, I'm sure she can handle it just fine." I whip around to see Niko smirking.

"Wouldn't be too sure about that one." My eyes fall to Knight's who's looking at me with cold eyes. He nods toward me, Shane, Reese and Niko taking a step closer. "This one seems to be all talk boys. Thinks she can handle anything but when it comes down to it she hasn't a clue what to do."

The slight jab makes me take a tiny step backward. I don't know if the guys know what's happened between us but the way Shane and Reese cover their mouths saying "ohhhhh" and "oh shit" puts me on edge.

My jaw tightens and I take a step forward getting closer into Knights space. "Don't underestimate me."

He smirks, "Hmm, care to put your money where your mouth is?"

My eyebrow quirks up because I have no idea what he's getting at. "You and me. After school. Down at the track," he nods to my car, "we'll race. And we'll put a bet on it."

I take a glance over to his car before bringing my eyes back to his. A slow grin forms on my face before I accept. "I'll be there."

Knight grins deviously. "Good." And with that he walks away leaving me staring at his fine ass as he walks into school. What in the hell did I just agree to?