Warning !!
A few moments of self harm might be accompanied in this and other chapters.
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I was sitting in Navya's room thinking about ending my life. That is what have been thinking since the time I came after burrying my own parents. No one can imagine what I went through seeing them burn while not being able to even save themselves. They were fine a while back. I regret leaving them and running all the way to Malhotra Mansion to meet my friend. I wished I was the one burning in that fire and not them. No one wanted me. Sidharth left me, breaking our pure friendship and my parents left the world only leaving me behind in the hands of no one. I felt as if I was the one in the grave, deep into the mud with no oxygen or people around.
"Beta." I looked up to find Maasi and Uncle standing with a small smile and pity for me. I knew why they were here.
"You are my child. Like Navya." Maasi said settling beside me. She lost her sister too but she had a family to hold onto I was left with none. I was now just a piece of trash ready to be thrown anywhere. I did not respond to what she said. I had no strength. My tears were dried but my heart was bleeding and my misery was increasing with each passing second. "I will never think bad for you." She said caressing my hair and I looked at the floor. "We hardly make it possible to run our household." I closed my eyes thinking how I was a princess yesterday and now I was just a mere thing.
Mama ,papa you should have taken me with you.
The woman sitting beside me claimed me as her daughter rather than Navya and today when I needed her to be there like a mother, she was the one pushing me into darkness.
"I have looked upon you as my own blood." Uncle added and I controlled the urge to just run far away from them.
"I have made every possible investigation about Manik Malhotra. He is a nice guy." Everyone knew him. He wasn't the one to be investigated about. What he did back in the hospital by keeping his hand on my head made everything easy for my relatives to let me go and live with some stranger whom they hardly know. Was I some trouble ? Or badluck ? The Manik Malhotra whom I dreaded all my life left no stone unturned to make my life a hell. But I had no chance to say a word. My family did not want me. My friend did not want me. Then why would he want someone like me ? That too when he had a girlfriend. I never wanted him to feel pity for me. I don't want him to do something just because he was my father's student and respected him.
"You will get engaged to him, tomorrow." Maasi announced and I looked at her baffled.
"Tomorrow.?" I asked unsure of whether I heard correct or not. I just came back from the cemetry.
"Yes and then you can start living with him. We won't mind. Both of you should get to know each other." She said smiling at me as if she was doing me a favour. How I wished my mama to not listen to this or else she would have died a million times. My own maasi was giving me to a stranger because they couldn't afford a fourth person in the house. I cried silently while maasi pecked my hair taking my silence as a yes. She went out and I broke into tears, sobbing and hiccuping all along. I was so alone. Throughout my life I was the happiest to have been blessed with a family but today I dreaded my presence in this world. It was better if they had left me in the orphange. Both of them went away and Navya came inside crying all the time.
"I am so sorry Nandu. I will ask mama papa they will not send you away. That too with Manik Malhotra. "She understood my inner termoil but who would listen to her.
"Navya what is wrong with you. He is the best. He owns Space colleges and is a well known businessman. He will keep her happy." Maasi said. Just because of their comfort they were throwing me into hell the same day my parents left.
