The road didn't end but the time kept on passing. I never realized how worst drives could be until today. I regret coming to Mumbai more than ever. I knew how naive and sensitive she is. I knew she was relying on me. I knew she was trying to give us a chance but everything had to get ruined. I wouldn't mind manofying her but the fact that she got herself ill and was admitted to the hospital makes me insane.
Those pictures were old but even then it wasn't like we were having a moment. She had always been a friend, an extremely good friend. She was the only friend out of Fab Five whom everyone considered a family. I still couldn't find out how she came to know about me and Nandini. If not then why would she send those pictures to her ?? She definitely knew something. Something that she shouldn't. There was no one else who could send those pictures to her. It had to be her.
The call went unanswered again and I dialled Aditya's number.
"No Sir, sorry." He said again whatever his bhabi asked him to say. She isn't talking to me since 24 hours, since I have set on a journey and have not reached anywhere near to her. The short cuts have been jammed, the main road was blocked because of land sliding and we were stuck in traffic.
"When is this going to be cleared ?" I asked my driver looking at him through mirror.
"No idea, sir. They are working ahead." He said the same thing that he had been saying since a long time and I was fed up. I got down from the car and passing the cars in the way I reached the edge of the road, looking into nowhere. I wished for everything to be sorted out soon. I don't want her to go through whatever she went through and the way she chose to get herself out of pain was the worst. I was busy cursing my fate and myself when my chauffeur called to me.
"Sir, it's getting clear. We will make a move in half an hour." I almost ran to the car acting like a person who was going to miss his train. I hoped for it to clear soon because we still had a lot of way ahead.
Let it get over soon....
Nandini
I stood looking ahead at the loneliness in the sky, just like within me. This city had given me so much and snatched way too much. I am no longer the same old girl who cared about nothing but her studies. Now is the girl who had gone through heart breaks and loss of people. Out of all the miseries, I never thought that I would be heart broken over a guy. What changed suddenly ?? Is it just that my trust was broken or was it something else ? Why did his actions matter so much ? Why did his mere presence brought a smile on my face and why did his absence make me feel like the end of the world ? I hated him, from the bottom of my heart then what changed in a matter of few weeks ? Why his presence near another girl hurt me so much ? It didn't matter to me before. Just because he was my fiancé ? My mind kept on asking me questions or more like mocking at me. I felt the happiest despite not having my parents around. He made me feel so special. I trusted him when he told me he loved me.
A sob left my mouth as I held onto the railing and my head bend down as I tried to not break into tears. It hurt so bad to even think of him with someone else. So bad that I felt like my airways blocking and my heart getting numb.
Oh Jesus Christ !!!
I never thought he would hurt me so bad. Why did he do that ? And why can't I think of something else ? Of moving on ?
My heart over sped at just the thought of moving on, of letting him go to someone else. I was never ready for it. My heart was never ready to be broken this way, in a way that it would never have anyone else, in a way that it will never know what it is to have your loved one....
