Unravelling Fate

02: Evelyn Portia Baudelaire

chapter two;
evelyn portia baudelaire

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"KUNG kinukulam man ako ng kaluluwa mo, Portia, parang-awa mo na h'wag ako!" I told my reflection while I was in the freaking huge bathroom. Gusto ko sanang ma-amaze kung gaano kaganda at kabongga 'yong banyo, pero mas natataranta talaga ako.

I had been in this freaking place since yesterday. Kinulong ko lang ang sarili ko kahapon sa kwarto at tulala lang ako. Halos pagulong-gulong lang ako sa kama, at saka palipat-lipat ng upuan sa mga sofa na meron dito sa kwarto.

Also, the maid who was with me yesterday was so scary, kaya nagkulong na lang talaga ako.

When I calmed down from panicking the maid just eyed at me like I was someone lower than her. It made me recall all the awful things that happened to me from before, so I just shut my mouth although I wanted to ask a lot of things to her.

She looked like she wasn't really someone I could talk to. Her eyes were just screaming that I wasn't in the place to act like how I acted yesterday. I mean, how should I react when I suddenly became someone from my very own novel?!

Gusto niya bang magtatalon ako sa saya at magpanggap kaagad na si Portia, kung loading pa rin sa utak ko lahat nang nangyayari sa akin ngayon?

My gosh! Gusto ko nga sana magwala sa harap niya kahit pa sabihin nilang nababaliw na ako. Literal naman kasi na pakiramdam ko baliw na ako. Saka sino ba kasi 'yong maid na 'yon! Kamukha niya 'yong stepmother ni Cinderella, kaya shut up na lang talaga ako no'ng tinitigan ako no'n kahapon.

Napasabunot na lang ako sa sarili ko. Akala ko ba kapag napunta ka sa kung saang mundo, ang sasalubong sa 'yo 'yong maid na loyal sa 'yo?! Bakit 'yong akin, 'yong parang kakainin ako nang buhay?!

Jusko, unfair!

I revoke my fantasies of going to some novel before! Balik n'yo na ako sa mundo ko, ayoko na rito, lalo na kampon yata no'ng nanay ni Cinderella 'yong maid ko! Wait, maid ko ba 'yon? My gosh, hindi ko rin sure!

Pakiramdam ko tuloy hindi ako nagsulat no'ng kwento na 'to!

I felt an incoming headache thinking a lot of things all at once. It was beyond overwhelming. I felt so lost and blank.

Whenever the old maid came in, I just behaved and gulped while some other maids with her was serving meals to me during mealtime.

I just thanked them for the foods and told them to eat and rest, too, before they go out. Hindi ko rin kasi alam paano aakto sa kanila, kaya ro'n na lang ako sa palagi kong ginagawa sa mundo ko.

Muntik ko na nga rin hindi kainin 'yong mga pagkain kahapon kasi baka mamaya may lason 'yon, pero napapalunok na lang talaga ako kasi mukhang masarap. Dahil mas nangibabaw 'yong pagiging patay-gutom ko kesa 'yong survival instincts ko, kinain ko pa rin 'yon.

Good thing, buhay pa rin ako ngayon, at wala naman akong naramdamang kakaiba. Mukhang kahit galit sa akin si stepmother, hindi naman niya ako lalasunin.

Also, beside from mealtimes, no really comes to this room, which was good for me. At least, wala akong ibang aalalahanin.

I cheered for myself yesterday thinking that it was like an evolved dream from my vivid dreams. Maybe it was an upgraded version. Wow, 'di ba? Parang cellphone lang 'yong panaginip ko, pwede i-upgrade.

I thought that when I drifted to sleep, I would wake up in my real world. In that modern world. Not this world that was in royal-like setting.

But then I couldn't really fall asleep, even though I already counted thousands of sheep.