TommyInnit angst-shots

Far From Home

(I was listening to the song and it gave me inspo ok?)
(The band is Five Finger Death Punch, I totally recommend them like)
(TW; attempted suicide, inner voices promoting self harm/suicide-also, Tommy's biological father made him a drug addict-)
(ALSO, THIS TAKES PLACE IN THE SMP, NOT IRL. ALSO THIS ISN'T CANNON)
(Slight religious stuff?)

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☆Tommy POV

I sat atop the building and looked down at the busy streets. The people were buzzing like tiny flies as kids screamed for their moms and dads.

Tears slipped past my eyes as I sighed, watching as rain clouds formed over head. As it started to pour, the people ran into vacant or object pact buildings to shelter themselves. The alarm for a tornado warning sounded, making little kids scream their heads off.

I stood up, not caring if I got sick or wet. I'd be dying soon anyways, so it didnt matter. I pushed my hair back behind my pointed ears, it shockingly didnt get caught in my piercings.

Pulling my hoodie back, I looked down at the ground again in a daze. I felt as if the ground was pulling me towards it.

Now dont get me wrong, I dont want to leave my family. I know they love me, and that they'd (probably) miss me. But just like Techno, Philza and Ranboo, the voices tell me things that they shouldn't.

Sometimes, their good things(very rare), then other times they just tell ms to kill myself. Though occasionally.. they'd tell me things like, like I'm a God. I'm no God.

I was far from home. I should go back. Yeah, yeah go back. Go back to the people you've betrayed multiple times, even though they've somewhat neglected you. They always tried to be there, right?

Do it.

Jump.

Coward.

Selfish.

They don't love you like we do.

Tubbo hates you.

Philza too.

You deserve this, you freak.

I started to rip at my hair, pulling some out in the process. Tears stung my eyes again as the rain poured down harder. My sobs were drowned out by the thundering if rain hitting the ground.

The ground rumbled as thunder erupted from the sky, leaving me to believe it was time.

I let go of my grip on my hair, standing straight. My drug addiction couldnt be fed anymore, it's been so long. My father may have been a God, but I will not call him my father nor my Christ.

I screamed into the oblivion in front of me, out stretching my arms to catch the wind.

Lifting my foot of the tattered building edge, I leaped from my spot that was now soaked in water. The wind carried me down, pushing my hair back.

I turned over to face the sky, taking in the view one last time.

Though the ground felt closer than expected. I looked around frantically and noticed I was bring carried into the air.

I looked up, Phil looked straight ahead. I saw tiny tears edging the brim of his eyes, soon flying past as we sped up. His grey wings glistened with water as we neared a clear area.

Though it was protected by leaves and branches, some rain still managed to make it to the ground.

As we landed, Phil fell to his knees. I sat in his arms, not wanting to move from his embrace. Phil may have neglected me as a child, but I still loved him. I feel as though sometimes he tries to make it up by spending time with me.

I felt him shake was he looked at the ground, you could see how distant he was. He opened his mouth, though no words came out. He croaked out a cry, shoving his face into the crook of my neck.
(Father figure guys I-✋🏻😭)

"Tommy.." I felt his warm tears stain my soft skin. I pulled him close in confusion.

"Phil?" His grip tightened as his wings perked up.

"Tommy, never, never, do that again, okay?" He pulled away and cupped my cheeks, wiping away the tears I didnt know were flowing.

"Phil-" "I'm sorry I was never there for you, I know it won't make up now but I want to be there. I want to be there for my precious baby boy.."

He looked at me again and smiled, tears spewing out of his eyes like waterfalls. Though I was shocked, I didnt react immediately.

Though soon pulling him into a hug, he sobbed into my shoulder. "Its okay dad.. I forgive you."

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《So not much happened, but idk lmao. Also, I feel like I'm gonna stop trying to write in my SpiderInnit book fer awhile, idk. I just havent had the motivation to write, sorry guys.》

《Tho I hope I still have a bit of motivation left fer another chapter or two in this book. If not plz PLZ request》

《Anyways, gngn yall✋🏻》