Guide Me | N. Robertson

12| "Hi Mom"

A few days later, and the Leafs were back on the road for week long trip, which meant that I was alone in my apartment. I still haven't told Nick about my past with Auston and I want to be the one to tell Nick. He doesn't deserve to hear it from anyone else but me. The boys will be coming home in two days, which meant that I still had time to plan my speech. 

-- Two Days later

"Brooks?" I hear Nick yell into my apartment. I run down the stair from my room and give him a hug.

"Hi, I missed you." I kiss him and let go from the hug.

"I missed you too. Now I'm home until the end of the year!"

"I know. I have something to tell you, come sit down." I move towards the couch.

"What's wrong?" Nick asks. He could probably tell by the look on his face that I was bothered at the situation.

"I just need to tell you something before someone else does. I want you to hear it from me so you get the actual story."

"Ok." He takes my hands.

"So I've known Morgan my entire life and we grew up in Vancouver, but when he came to Toronto, I didn't see him for awhile. When the team would come to Vancouver, I would always hang out with Morgan and the team. I got to know some of the team pretty well and specifically Mitch and Auston." I start to relax as a result of Nick's presence. "Then last year, I would sometimes hang out with the team and that's when I started to sit in the same seat at centre ice. Everyone knows that Morgan reserves that seat for me every game, but in reality it was Auston who had been saving me a seat. He was the youngest on the team and we had started to hang out alone together. One time, I had gone to a Raptors game with Auston and after he had told me that he was catching feelings for me."

"Brooks are you leaving me for him?" I could feel a shift in his mood. He thinks I'm leaving him for Auston? I would never do that. I love Nick too much. 

"Nick, I didn't feel the same. He's four years older than I am and I just knew that he wasn't the one for me. I'd only be wasting my time. So when we went to watch your practice just the other week, some of the girls told me about how they thought Auston and I would've ended up together."

"Oh."

"That's all you're going to say?" I start to get frustrated. This was not the way I hoped this was going to go. 

"I just need time to process and think about it." He also starts to become frustrated and raises his voice a little.

"Think about what?" Now I was yelling a bit.

"I gotta get some air. I'll see you later." He walks out the door. That night I cried realizing that I just drove the love of my life away from me.

-- Nick's POV

I was hurt. I love Brooks so much but now I can't help but think she loves Auston despite what she says. I was not looking forward to this next week. My mom and sister are coming this week and I still haven't told Brooks. I have to pick up my mom tomorrow from the airport. I've barely spent anytime at my place. I've been spending the night at Brooks' apartment lately. Brooks has let me put some of my clothes in her closet and hang up my pregame suits. We've developed our own pregame rituals. We make dinner together and then have coffee together before I leave. Brooks sits in the same corner seat as the first time. I can't let this fight get in the way of that. I have to talk to Auston. 

The next day practice had just ended when I walked up to Auston. "Hey Auston, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Yeah what's up Robby?"