Fuck ! I feel for you

Chapter 64

"Zayn baby......I- listen, it's not something you can't deal with, okay. I understand -," Trisha said but Zayn shook his head stopping her.
"Easy for you to say mum because you can't understand how it feels when they just throw it right on my face how I have everything given by Liam and have nothing of my own...," Zayn sniffed.

"Okay okay you relax now. You go and get changed. I'll bring some tea and then we'll talk. Okay, relax," Trisha said.
Zayn went upstairs to his children bedroom. He opened the door and looked inside the room. It was neat and clean. The posters of his favourite band was still on the wall. The table with his study material were still there. Nothing really changed. Trisha kept it as he left them years ago when he moved out with Louis.

He walked inside his room and took off his clothes. He looked in the closet and found nothing that could fit him.
"Mum !!" He yelled calling for his mother.
"What happene baby ?" She asked walking in his room with his father hoddie.

"I have nothing to wear," Zayn pouted looking in through the clothes.
Trisha smiled and walked closer to him.
"Here. Your father's hoddie probably triple your size. You can change into them," she said handing him the black colour hoddie.

Zayn took it from her and put it on. It literally swallowed him making his mother laugh. "Your Baba was a big man," she chuckled, "No wonder he used to spend hours in gym."

And the God knows why reminds him of Liam. But he didn't want to think about him at all.
"Mum please if Louis or Liam or anyone calls don't tell them I'm here. I just want to be alone for sometimes," Zayn said and his mother nodded understanding.

"Okay now come downstairs," She said leaving him alone. Zayn pulled out his favourite blue socks and put them on before walking downstairs in the living room.

"Come baby. Sit and tell me everything," she said pouring tea in two cups.
"What else I should tell you mom ? I don't understand myself how - I never expected it to turn out like this," he said frustratingly.
"See Zayn, you can't deny the fact that this thing is not going anywhere. You need to learn how to deal with this. And please don't think about anything stupid," she said.

After Liam proved himself to her, she knew Zayb and Liam are just made for each other. They are each other's happiness and Zayn without Liam is just so incomplete.

"I'm not thinking about anything stupid Mom. I just need time for myself," Zayn defended himself. But forgot his mother was UK's top lawyer and was once Liam attorney too.

"You need time for yourself don't mean that you have any right to hurt Liam," she argued.
"How the fuck I am hurting him mom ?" Zayn asked getting angry a little.

"First, watch your mouth. You are talking to your mother not just any random person," She said in a stricked tone and Zayn looked down at his lap mumbling a small sorry, "Second, you left him in the club and now you have your cellphone switched off. And knowing him I'm sure he must be going crazy trying to look for you. All these acts of your can hurt him Zayn."

If only Louis has used that tone on him.

"Why are you not seeing that I-," Zayn tried to argue but his mother decided to complete the sentence for him.

"Want time for yourself. I know and I understand that. But you can't just block out Liam. Nothing is his fault," She said looking at his son who now looking deep in her eyes.
Zayn sighed and closed his eyes leaning back on the couch.

"Mom, did Baba helped you becoming a lawyer you are today?" He asked making his mother frown.
"No. He didn't. Whatever I am today is my own hard work," she replied quite proudly.