The Accidental Goal

Revelations

I hear him say those words that nothing we could ever do is a bad decision, but this feels like one. I feel him press against me and it feels like I am home again. His familiar scent invading my senses. My brain telling me to not let him go, but my heart is being hesitant.

I know if or when we cross this line it will be only temporary. Nothing is going to change, we'll have sex and he'll go back to Jen and the baby and I'll be here alone again. Right now though with him standing in front of me I don't listen to any of it.

The need to feel his skin against mine is too urgent. He sits me down on the bed and lifts my shirt off and throws it to the ground. I love the way he looks at me. Like I am the last bit of water on Earth and he needs me to survive.

He takes off his shirt and places my hand over his heart. "This is always yours. Please never forget that," he says.

I look up at him and can't help, but feel how fast his heart is beating. "I need you. I have missed your touch, your lips and your heart," he pleads with me.

I try to blink back my tears, but I feel a lone one fall. God knows how hard I have tried to stop loving this man. A man I have loved since I was 15, but I can't. He owns my heart and my soul and always will.

He leans down and captures my lips again and I feel his slowly nudge me to lay down. He straddles my hips and starts to kiss my neck.

I moan needing him every where. His kisses setting fire to my skin and my soul. I feel him tug at my pants and I lift my hips so he can slide them down.

"I need you," I whisper.

"I need you so much. I have missed you," he says.

I undo his jeans and he pushes them off his hips and they fall on the ground.

I look into his eyes and all I see is the love he has for me. "Please," I moan as I feel him take off my underwear and push down his boxers.

He pushes inside me slowly and I grab onto his back. "You are mine. Fuck I love you so much," he moans as he moves inside me.

I lift up my hips and need him to go deeper inside me. Feeling the pressure build in my core as he used his thumb to rub my clit.

"Fuck I'm close," I moan as I dig my nails into his back.

He speeds up his thrusts and I feel myself right on that edge. He takes my right leg and puts it on his shoulder getting deep inside me and that pushes me over the edge.

"Oh go Evan, I'm cumming," I yell riding on my orgasm.

He grunts more and thrusts inside me and I feel him release and grab onto my hips tightly.

"Yes Hayley, fuck you feel so good."

He collapses on my body and just holds me. My hands running up and down his back. 

He pulls out of me and lays down beside me.  I cover myself with the duvet cover and think od what to say.  I don't know why I let this happen and now I have helped him cheat on Jen.

"You should probably go," I say trying not to look at him. 

"Why? There is no place I want to be, but right here with you," he says putting his arm around me.

"What about Jen? I am not feeling particularly good about what happened knowing that you are with her," I say.

"I live with her yes, but that is all.  I have been sleeping on the couch since you left.  I just want to be there for my child, but that is it."