The Accidental Goal

Memories

It's been a whirl wind of emotions ever since we found out that I was pregnant. First I was so happy l, then I felt sad because we'll never get to know the little life we lost before this precious one. After I went through the sadness happiness took over again and that is were I currently am.

Now 8 and a half months along I am starting to do what they call nesting . Making sure everything is in its place. On Evan's last long stretch home, him and Greg went to the storage locker and got out the baby stuff we put there.

The nursery now looks amazing and complete and is just missing the most important thing, Baby Donaldson.

We thought in honor of our angel baby we would hang up our only picture of him or her beside the picture of their brother or sister.

Looking at the finished nursery and all the love that went into build it, I feel a lone tear fall.

"Are you okay?" Evan asks wrapping his big arms around me.

"Perfectly fine. Just the hormones," hoping he'll believe me.

"I still miss him or her too. There will always be a spot in my heart that will never be filled," holding me tighter.

"Me too, but I try not to think about it. Focus on this little one who we will be so busy with, but I will always wonder what he or she would have looked like," leaning into him.

"In my mind she looks like you. You always make me smile, so when I think of her, she is a mini you who lights up the room and gives me that sassy attitude, just like her mom."

"I picture a little boy with his daddy's deep blue eyes and can do attitude and you teach him how to skate on a home made rink and we both get so excited when he scores his first goal in hockey," smiling to myself.

"Well our little one is doing one of those things up in heaven and this one in here will for sure have a guardian angel for life," he says rubbing my stomach.

"If I haven't said it enough lately I love you so much and thank you for loving me."

"You never have to thank me for that, you make it easy to love you and we have been through so much. This is a new chapter of all things good," turning me around kissing me slowly.

"Are you looking to get lucky Mr. Donaldson?"

"Always Mrs. Donaldson, but what I said was right from my heart. You own this. You always have and always will," placing my hand over his heart.

I slide my hands down his chest and under his shirt and feel his muscles flex as my hands run up his skin.

"What is it it that you want?" He asks me raising one eyebrow.

"You Evan, all of you. Make me yours tonight."

He takes my hand and leads me to our bedroom. Taking off my shirt and pushing my jeans off.

"Fuck you look so hot, all pregnant with my baby," he says smiling.

"I look bloated and fat," I say laughing.

"You never see you through my eyes. You looks beautiful and sexy," leaning in and kissing my neck. His hands on my hips and moving towards my aching core.

His fingers slide into my fold and I moan loudly.

"Always so wet for me.  I love how responsive your body is to my touch.  Lets see how responsive it is to my tongue," kneeling down in front of me.

He pushes my legs a part and kisses my inner thigh making his way closer to where I need him. 

"Please," begging him and feeling his fingers speed up.  Finally his tongue reaches my pussy and I grab his hair and tug on it as he licks me fast.