~ sad zone ~

~sad zone rant 2~

Randomly got sad thought I should write it down...

                  [Rant starts now]

Lately I felt so stressed I can feel my heart rate increase in a way, is that normal? Maybe, maybe not. Kinda wanna go back to not realizing how many problems my life had, when my parents haven't divorced and when I thought nothing of life issues, to when me and my cousins would play and forget we had homework...But at the same time I think going back to that time would be worse then now, I mean...my life has different problems now that are much more stressful than before but maybe it because I've matured, and I'm still maturing, but that's fine.

On a different note I really miss my girlfriend, she's honestly the best thing that's happened to me so like how can I not. Unlike my family she listens when I speak and it doesn't just go through one ear and out the other. They're amazing. Same goes for my friends, well expect one cause he's been a toxic prick recently, but he also has his own problems, even though he sucks sometimes. So I hope good comes his way. He deals with a lot I feel bad, but I'm not gonna let him push me around just cause he also has issues. I mean we actually have somewhat similar trauma, but he's so different from me sometimes. Interesting guy I guess, I hope he's doing alright right now.

(He follows my account but whatever it's a rant, I'm gonna type whatever I think of)

He can be great but sometimes he just throws tantrums over little things or jokes he didn't realize were jokes..and I feel bad cause I end up putting the blame on myself sometimes. Who knows maybe it is my fault, I can always try apologizing but till he tells me what I'm doing wrong, I'm not saying sorry. 

I thinks that's enough ranting, I hope your all doing well!!

Have a great day/night, drink water, try eating something, and most importantly, sleep is propaganda Made by the government so they can install the cameras in the pigeons~