~ sad zone ~

~Sad zone rant 8~

Enjoy this rant since my day is absolutely horrible

Tw: I guess mentions of wanting to hurt myself

[rant begins now]

I genuinely feel like smashing my head against my table till I pass the absolute fuck out. Like I just want to stop existing I guess.

Literally everything I do seems to be wrong and I can't even enjoy anything I do without feeling like I'm a lazy piece of shit. Then all my family does is play victim and at this point I might just be doing the same cause I never seem happy for shit anymore and all that I do is mope and I hate it.

I can't even be sad without getting mad at myself for being sad.

I just wanna break something right now but I can't even do that! What the hell am I supposed to break without getting in trouble? Why can't I just be able to calm the fuck down without having to fucking rant over stupid shit.

I have one friend asking me to play with him now and how the fuck do I answer? "Oh no can do buddy chum pal I'm sobbing my eyes out and hating myself disgusting self just cause I can't be pretty and perfect like my family wanting something to be fixed.

Apparently I have an ugly smile cause all my family cares about is if I'm wearing my retainers. Apparently I should loose weight cause my mom keeps pointing out that I'm gaining. Apparently I need to stop sobbing like a petty bitch over stupid shit like me not being happy with how I look.

It's been less than five minutes and I've already reached 282 words so I definitely need to calm the fuck down like.

I don't even feel like eating ice cream like- my mom offered it and I said no that never happens I just really need to calm the fuck down I'm giving myself another stupid ass headache.

So yeah I guess that was a quick update on how I was feeling- I'm just gonna leave it here so just remember to drink water, try eating something even if it's small, and remember sleep is propaganda so they can yadyada I can't think of a line so bye-