I am Different...and that is okay.

Someone Else

While many of my chapters are emotionally pouring out my mind, they're simply dedicated to one special person.

However, there is someone else in my life that is very important to me as well.

She's my best friend.

You see, there's a difference between having and older brother and a best friend. An older brother will get annoyed with you, and ignore you and make you feel like dirt sometimes.

Sorry, dude.

But a best friend will never let you feel that way at all.

To JMetz:

Thank you for all that you've done for me. First and foremost I don't think I would've made it past freshman year without you.

You saw where I came from, you saw how my life was  unexpectedly turned around and you saw me suffer through it.

You watched as I made so many wrong choices, and learn from them. You've watched me grow.

I have done the same, and I remember us coaching each other through our problems last year. It was  honestly great that we met, because I wouldn't be half the person I am today without you.

You're very special to me. I can say anything that's on my mind at any time and I know you won't judge me. You're always there when I'm having a tough time. I know you'll put down your books for just a second, to respond to a text that I've cried about.

I tell you all of my secrets. They say "don't tell anyone" but I say, "my best friend doesn't count." in reality you're my second brain. You keep track of me and make sure that I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing.

While you may be introverted and I, extroverted, we both know that our personalities compliment each other extremely well. You keep me grounded while I try to float high above what I'm supposed to be floating on...

You're my reality-check. I'm stuck inside a very strange brain, so every time I need an outlet to reality, I always come to you.

You coach me through my struggles. The only person in the world I put 100% of my trust in, is you. While I might trust others a lot too, it will never  be quite like my trust for you.

You've seen my good sides, and my bad sides. You don't judge me based off one side, you know who I really am. That's big.

We have quite a unique bond if I do say so myself. We're not the two best friends that have everything in common and are the same person, no way, by far, we are very opposing in personalities, however our compliment with each other fits just right, like a puzzle piece. While we have so many clear differences, there are also many things (strangely) that we run parallel with, like perhaps our love for a certain Rimsky-Korsakov piece with an impeccable violin solo???

You're going to move onto bigger and better things in your life soon, because if the exceptional person you are, and I'm going to have watch from behind. While I'm dying inside to keep up with you, I know it'll never happen. There isn't enough room in this world for two exceptional girls (like you) so I guess I'll be the average.

You make me proud to be your friend. Remember, you said you'd let me help you write your valedictorian speech. Don't forget that ;)

While I can't wait to see what the future holds for the both of us, I wish to stay like this forever, because I know that once we graduate, we'll be gone from each other's lives. It will be sad, but I will be happy to remember those days in high school when we weren't focused on the big changes in life, but rather, we were just two best friends who shared their teenage lives with each other.

Thanks for being in my life, you'll never be underappreciated or misunderstood from me.

And I love you sososososo much <3