It's been some time
A few weeks, months,
Since I've felt prime,
Since I've had fun.
All I've done
Is worry to the extreme
Then I realized,
My life isn't as it seems.
It's everything together,
School, and work,
Friends and family,
Inside fears that lurk.
I didn't really notice
As time went by
But then I understood,
That my perception was a lie.
I stopped eating
I almost fainted
After two days time,
My blood sugar was tainted.
Don't even get me started
On the panic I feel,
When suddenly it attacks,
I don't think I can fully heal.
I can't think,
I can't see,
My heart races,
It buzzes inside like a bee.
It's really painful,
My stomach churns,
My hands shake,
My hurt burns.
Why do I feel like
this is going nowhere?
Why do I feel like
My life is anything but fair?
I'm not depressed,
I'm still happy,
I'm still excited,
But I'm more scared as can be.
You can call me nervous,
Accuse me of being scared,
I'm worried, apprehensive,
But also know that I still really care.
It's unreasonable.
I know I'm not thinking rational
But when it comes to this stress,
My actions make me feel embarrassed, and bashful
Humans make me happy,
I love to interact with people,
But when it comes to certain social situations,
I find it hard to keep my cool.
I can't just stop it
It won't just "turn off"
My thoughts aren't concrete,
They're versatile, soft...
While I worry over too much,
And I'm anything but gracious,
I'm still fine, I'm sane,
Even though I'm always anxious.
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I am Different...and that is okay.
RandomIn this book, you will read about all this time I've spent as a teenager, going through the ups and downs with friendships, goals, and personality. It is something like a diary to me, as I reveal my deepest thoughts. However, I also question a lot o...
