I'm having a bit of a moral dilemma at the moment. I'm kind of going through some rough patches with a close friend of mine and I don't exactly know what to do with myself. All I know is that I don't like it.
That being established, I've felt pretty crappy about my character. How did I allow myself once again to make the same mistakes as before but with just a different person? I don't know whether or not it is valid of me to be depressed over this situation.
I for one am extremely good at hiding my real emotions, when I choose to. For the most part, nobody will even guess when I'm upset over something. I'm pretty sure a lot of people actually are very good at this.
The dilemma I have with myself is whether or not I'm going to allow myself to get upset over a dumb situation or to just move on. Even though I mask it from the crowd, should I mask it from myself?
As a rational, logical human, and in the grand scheme of things, I obviously just want to forgive and forget.
But it's easier said than done.
I want to cry and scream and kick the walls and act all immature about this and blame my problems on everyone else but obviously, that's not going to happen. I honestly shouldn't even be making this a huge deal. It doesn't even NEED to be as big of a deal as I think it is, and I totally get it.
However, I just can't seem to help myself from wanting to get emotional over the circumstances. I know nothing's been lost, only changed, and probably for the better, however, I just feel very empty, internally. I'm at war with myself because I feel everything, yet nothing, all at once.
And I don't know what I should do.
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I am Different...and that is okay.
AléatoireIn this book, you will read about all this time I've spent as a teenager, going through the ups and downs with friendships, goals, and personality. It is something like a diary to me, as I reveal my deepest thoughts. However, I also question a lot o...
