Sweethearts (MaleReader x K/DA Ahri)

Chapter 10

***   Ahri POV   ***

"Stop looking at me like that," I pout as Evelynn shoots me a glare, "This isn't something where I just walk up to him and we hug it out."

She rubs her brow, "I know but you need to do it - there is no point in dragging this out, right? Then we will be stuck with another situation where he thinks that you don't care at all."

I nod, "I know. I don't want to do it all but I have to."

"Nobody said it would be easy and you already made me promise to let you do this on your own."

I nod again, not without a dramatic sigh, "(Y/N) still thinks Chris and I are dating. How do I just tell him that I lied to him in his face? That I was so scared that I panicked. What would he think?"

She then plops down beside me, "Right... This would really have been easier if you didn't go and do that."

"Eve!"

She hugs me, "Just tell him the truth. The worst that can happen is-"

"I don't want to hear it," I breathe a sigh, "I know what the worst is."

She then continues despite my protest, "It will end up just like it was these past ten years. You go on with your life. He moves on with his. With our without each other."

I squirm, my heart sinks at the reality along with the sudden stinging pain in my heart. Why now? Why am I just so sensitive about this? Is it because it is him? 

Her hand's grasp around my shoulder tightens, "He asked for you last night and that should be enough right? Enough proof that he wishes to just mend what is broken and move on from the past for good. You should do that too. Forget about the past."

"How can I just forget about something like that?"

"I don't know, Ahri... I really do not know," she frowns, "If I had all the answers I would have given it to you a long time ago."

"I am being unfair," I wipe my tears before they could have the chance to stain my cheeks, it is all frustration.

Built upon issues from the past that was never handled. How sad of me! I have to rely on them to make things work for me. To clear up the misunderstanding from my own damned fault! I would never think myself this stupid... a damn idiot!

"Ahri..." Eve breaks me from my thoughts, giving me a pained stare as if she could read my thoughts, "Stop killing yourself over it. Otherwise, I would just let it end here and now - if this is how bad it is-"

I stop her, "No! I can't just stop... I can't. Just give me time and I will go to him of my own accord. Can you give me his number? Please?"

She nods, "Yes but not now. When you have cleaned yourself up a bit. We still have some work to do for the day and that should keep your mind occupied until we talk about it again. Okay?"

I nod and give her a grateful sigh, "Yeah... yeah."

Aria jumps up to the bed, nestling into the side of my neck in complete silence. I run my fingers down her head to scratch her back. I just need to calm down.

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The past few days were long and terribly busy. I did eventually muster up the courage to message him that I will let him know when I have time to do so. It just happened to be one of my busiest weeks of the year.

Promotions behind promotions - with plans behind plans leading into potential public appearances and concerts they want to do.

But despite being so busy it was even harder to keep focus during interviews and discussions with my brands. Occasionally zoning out just to think of the possibility that we can get past this - that there is room for forgiveness from both of us.

I just wish I knew what he is thinking - how he really felt then this would just be so easier... then my mind doesn't have to fill that hole for me.

We did talk about it again but I would be lying if I said that it went better than our last ones. It is a jumbled mess.

Eve means well, all of them do. I still have to thank Akali and Kai'Sa for getting in the middle. I fear if they didn't we would have stuck with the idea of going on as if he was never here. Though considering that he was working in the VIP section at Trinity just made it so much harder.

"Ahri, can I talk to you for a sec?"

I lift my gaze from the ground as Chris offers me a smile, "Yeah... yeah sure," I scoot to the side to make space for him, "What's up? Something went wrong with anything?"

"No-no. Everything has been smooth sailing apart from concert arrangements. Evelynn is already threatening them so I just decided to take a break as she gives them a run for their money," he sighs, "You okay? Things have been hectic lately."

"It is just business as usual. Nothing I am not used to."

He nods, "Yeah but then again we both know I am not talking about 'work'. Evelynn has made it pretty clear that this will have to take a backseat but I can tell that you can't stop thinking about it."

"About him? Yeah," I admit.

His gaze trails off from me, "I just don't know why you are going through all this. Especially with-"

I stop him, "I haven't been honest with you. The only reason you know about him is because of my drunk rambles and you had to ask me about (Y/N). I only gave the very bare minimum because I was sure he would never come back. That he left for good."

He furrows his brow, "That doesn't just mean he suddenly had permission to treat you the way he did. The heartache you experienced then and now is not worth it."

I shake my head, "How would you know?" I can tell that the question caught him off-guard, I then quickly add, "Sorry. I'm just a little bit sensitive right now."

He chuckles, "Yeah. I can tell that it's getting to you. As your manager I have to make sure your well-being above all else," he then smiles at me through the corner of his eye, "And then work all four of you into the ground."

I share his chuckle, "Right? Thank you, I appreciate you still trying to help."

"That is what fake boyfriends are for right?" he then faces me, his gaze locked onto my eyes, "I just want to make sure that you never go through that again. Not because of a business point of view but from a friend."

I smile at his words as I nod to myself, "There's no point crying about it anymore right?"

"It is time you just move on. Live and let die. My stance will still be the same - don't go to him. What is to say he isn't one shove away from ending up just like he did back then?" he then lifts himself from the chair, "If anything. If you do go - I sincerely hope that it ends in a way where no one gets hurt."

"Chris... I-"

He then stops me, "I kinda have to get back in there. I am starting to see things flying in the room and should make sure nobody... you know... died."

I nod, "Sure. I'll be with you guys in a few. Just need to recuperate."

He nods and then leaves with the same smile he came to greet me.

I don't know how to tell anyone this. Because honestly it kinda feels so silly to the point where I don't know if I am stupid or if this is normal. It has been ten years but I still love the person he was and maybe it is just the right person wrong time.

The circumstances were stacked against him and he couldn't break through it. I don't blame him for not being able to deal with any of that - I just...

I don't know.

I feel like a little girl holding onto her dreams again.