Such thing as a Happy Ever After?

Loving you is a losing game

This chapter is also inspired by Hayley Marshall from The Originals.  Enjoy :)

Cormac's POV:

            It's been three weeks since Andrew's death. Meredith is back at work now. I honestly don't think it's such a great idea for her to be back. We have a patient together again but now it's just awkward. We are now scrubbing in and Meredith looks pissed. " You ready for this?." I ask. " Yes why wouldn't I be?" she says. I just look at her. " Huh?" " Aren't you gonna answer the goddamn question?" she says clearly pissed. " Meredith, I was just asking okay?" I tell her. " Whatever, let's do this." she says before entering the room. We were doing the surgery and Meredith was silent the whole time. She clearly wanted to get the hell out of here. We just got done closing up the patient and she just walked right out. I walk out with her and we started scrubbing out. " Hey, what's wrong?" I ask. " Nothing Cormac can't you just mind your business?" she says mad. She gets done washing her hands and just storms out forgetting her scrub cap. 

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Meredith's POV:

          I hate this, all of it. Everywhere I go all I see is Cormac and I hate it. I leave the room and go to my office to cool down. I know it's not fair to him because he's not doing anything wrong. I'm on the couch as the door opens and Cormac comes in. He sits next to me and hands me my scrub cap. I grab it and I put it on the coffee table in front of us. We sit there in silence for a few minutes. " I love you Cormac" I start as he looks at me and I look straight forward. I turn my head and look right at him. " And he loved me, he didn't even know that and every time I look at you it's like he's right their and I'm lying to him all over again." I say and can't help but cry. " He died loving me and out of respect for him and love, I have to let you go." I say looking forward again. " Loving you has always been a losing game." I say. " That's fair, even though I tried that myself, didn't work." he said standing up and leaving the room. I got addicted to a losing game. All I know loving him is a losing game. Us loving each other was never gonna work out. it's just a losing game. I just started crying and stayed that way. 

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Cormac's POV:

            I now know why she was acting the way she was. I just finished getting the boys to bed and now I was laying on the bed just staring at the ceiling. I lost her and now I don't know what to do. I understand why she was doing this and honestly I would do the same. But she told me loving you is a losing game and I wonder is she right? Are we bound to be apart? Not have a happy ending? All these thoughts went through my head. I love her so much and I know we cant be together not like this. So am I just supposed to let her go and keep going on in life without her? Even though we have been through so much already? Just surrender? I really needed to sleep as I lay on my side I think....... Is there such a thing as a happy ever after? I close my eyes and drift off to sleep. 

What do you think of this chapter? Sorry it took a long time to update. Should I stop the story right here? Let me know please. :)