Such thing as a Happy Ever After?

Hurts like hell

This chapter will be short sry. 

Cormac's POV:

          I can't believe I just lied to her. She has to believe I have a girlfriend for her to stay away. I know Meredith she won't ever truly stay away and this is her wish. She needs to be away from me. If I didn't lie to her and she doesn't stay away I know I wouldn't be able to hold back much longer. She will forever resent me if I let in. No matter how much I love her all I want is for her to be happy even if it isn't with me. With everything she has been through the last six months she deserves to be happy. I leave the room and I see her at the nurses station. She turns her head and looks straight at me the turns back to read her charts. This is going to be harder than I thought I think to myself. As hard as it was for me, I just walked right past her without even glancing at her which I always do it was a habit for me, if there were a word that put in how much I did that I would use it but there wasn't. I could feel her looking at me but kept walking no matter how much it hurts her, hurts me.

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Meredith's POV:

           I can't believe he has a girlfriend. I mean what did I expect, that he was just going to wait forever even though we would never be together. I was in my bedroom, I left early I couldn't look at him. I then see Andrew's notebook that I never read. I hesitate but I have been avoiding that thing for the longest time. I was home alone and had nothing better to do. I pick it up and sit on the front of my bed then see something in one of the pages. I go to that page and see his ring along with a letter addressed to me. " Dear Meredith, if you get this then that means I'm dead but that's besides the point, I'm stuck in this room and this could be my final moments. I just wanted you to know it's okay to be happy you deserve it. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. Even if it's without me. I love you. I will always love you, you're the love of my life even if I'm not yours. I've seen the way you look at Hayes and even if I don't die here we still wouldn't get married. No matter how much I want too. I know you love me too but I'm not the only one you love. I could tell you're in love with him and I need you to know it's okay. Go be happy with him and don't hold back because of me, fight for him, don't let me get in the way. I need you to promise me that. I also need you to promise to tell the kids I love them too. I need you to watch over Carina for me. Make sure she's okay. I just need you to know that. I LOVE YOU. - Andrew"  At this point I was sobbing and I couldn't stop. This hurts like hell. He knew. He died loving me despite it. I just stayed their and cried. I couldn't stop. I pick up the ring and hold it close to me.I felt anger take over me and start throwing stuff everywhere and start screaming. I need all this pain to go away. Everyone that I love dies. They always die. I'm tired of this. First Lexie, then Derek, and now Andrew. I just screamed from the top of my lungs and finally I stop. I sat on the ground and cried. I couldn't do anything else but cry.

I'll try to update as soon as possible. One of my family members just died and I have been busy but I'll try to update daily. Let me know what you think of this chapter. :)