What If

28

JEN'S P.O.V.

When our lips collide, I wasn't even aware with my environment anymore. My mind grew numb and my body was like under a spell. Everything seems a blurr maybe because my eyes drew shut as if it has it's own mind. I know I'm going to feel bad later for myself especially after the kiss but I wasn't thinking clearly due to the pressure I felt on my lips.

"Always expecting for my kiss, huh?" He muttered softly after we gently gasps for air. His face was glowing and his green eyes sparkling with fire.

I blushed and turned around to hide the redness of my cheeks. I don't know what's wrong with my defense that everytime I look at his green eyes I was mesmerized.

"I bet you wasn't even kissed before. You don't know how to chase mine.." He uttered slowly enough to be heard.

I backed away so that I could breath. What's wrong with me? Acting like a slut being kissed by a stranger on the street side. This was not the real Jennifer!

I didn't noticed the tears sliding down on my red cheeks and a small sob escaped my mouth as my eyes shot a blazing glare to the guy who manipulated me.

"You are the most conceited beast I have ever seen, you asshole! You have no goddamn right to kiss me anytime you want, you pervert!" I yell unto his face. Eyes blazing and body shaking due to the uncontrolled temper ready to blast.

He was taken aback by my reaction. And he stared at me with creased forehead and a confused face.

"Hey, I thought.." He muttered brows furrowed.

"Thought what? That you can just play with me because I'm a sick naive girl or just that I'm american?" I thundered.

I saw him tensed as my words sunk on to him. His eyes grew darker. And he tugged some strands of his long hair that I almost winced from the pain of it.

"Don't you stand there acting all innocent because we both know you also enjoyed it." He said with clenching jaws.

A moment has passed before one of us able to say a word.

"I'm sorry.." He muttered softly with a groan.

I never talk back. And before I'm going to show softness again, my feet voluntarily moved away. I don't mind not being the valedictorian anymore when all I have to do is to deal with a person like him.

But my thoughts were clouded when in an instant he is now on my front and stopping my move with his hand.

"Look, I want to make things right. I mean..It's normal to kiss someone. People kiss all the time, you know.. " He hesitantly said as if balancing what will be my reaction.

Well, he's definitely right. It's just normal for two human beings alive to kiss each other. But on my part, it was still an alien thing.

He looked at me intently. "Wait..don't tell me you haven't even kissed before by anyone except me? "He muttered letting out a light chuckle.

My eyes blinks rapidly as I gazed downward. I don't want to agree to him though he's right because it's just such a shame on my part.

I know he's stopping his laughter when I caught sight of his face turning around. He even groaned sounding like a fake cough as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Okay..I promise I won't ever do that again..not untill you say so." His lips curved up a smile. "I mean, not until you will agree to me if I ask you to..you know." He muttered slowly having a hard time saying the word "kiss."

I felt so pathetic acting like a fool making a big fuss about something that normal people usually did.

"I..I'm not that so innocent..All I'm saying is that..you can't just kiss me anytime you want because we don't know each other and I'm not an easy girl." I stummerd as I watch him with a frown face.

"Then we'll get to know each other from now on. So that I get to kiss you-"

"I'm not saying that! I mean..your not my boyfriend. And so you have no right to kiss me-"

"So you mean you already have a boyfriend? Who? Jasper? That's why he always calls you baby or whatever the fuck he's mouth said, is that it?" He quickly said uttering the words in his British twang.

"He's not my bofriend, you prick! "I countered in between teeth. Why is this guy driving me insane like a mad dog!

"Woah! Don't tell me it's that high school boy you meet here earlier? He didn't even offered you a ride! How lame.. " He stated in a playful tone.

I glared hard at him that I think the nerves of my eyes were so visible. He was such so annoying that I want to smash his head with the riffle he was holding.

"Oh baby, you could have eaten me alive with that stare. Easy.." He said teasingly while waving a hand defensively.

"You are such a nuissance! I have to go." I shook my head in a defeated manner.

"Then I think I can offer you a ride, right? It's not safe for a girl like you walking alone in this kind of place." He said behind my back.

I didn't turned around to look at him or stop my pace. "I'd rather be than being with a stranger who thinks every girl is his playmate." I yell to him as I strides away.

I heard him stopped and eventually I was all alone again. I quicken my steps because I have to be home at 5pm. I have to ask my mom's permission about the dinner with Ryell though I won't tell her about dinner but a group study. And that I will be home as early as 9 or 10pm.

My feet grew numb due to being exposed too much on the ice. I can feel the coldness right under my boots as I crushed particles of snow while walking. When I stop a little to rest, that's when I heard a car heading towards my direction.

My eyes grew wide when I realized who was it's owner. And before I can ran away, the engine was now on my front as if blocking my way. What?

I bite my tongue to prevent myself from shouting dirty words to him when I saw him jumped out of the car with a smirk. He didn't come near me but instead sat on the front hood of his car while looking at my way.

My blood boiled and I want to punch his face so damn hard. I quickly rushed off to him and shoot him a blazing eyes.

"Your a pest! Why the hell are you blocking my way? " I mutterd in gritted teeth.

"I just said I'm gonna take you home, my love. But then you ran away again like a scared rat. And I'm not in the mood to chase you over and over again." He stated shrugging his shoulders and climbed off of the hood and grab the car door. It swung open.

"And didn't you hear me when I said I won't be riding with you? Your so full of yourself, Mr. Painter!" I hissed hastily without even blinking.

His expression grew hard. "Don't think just because I'm letting you ride into my fucking car or even kissed you damn twice I felt something for you. I just don't want that my conscience will gonna hunt me if you got raped or killed by walking alone in this stupid place. Got it?" His voice was full of bitterness.

I felt a pang of embarrassment upon hearing his words. I was so careless to think that a person like him got some interest on me just because he kissed me for the second time. And I should be grateful to him when he showed little concern for my safety.