Hesitations (JenLisKook) [Completed]

Chapter 19

Lisa's POV

More than five months has passed since Jungkook and I separated our ways.

I can say I am finally recovered now.I can't deny that I still love him somehow, I still care for him but I can live and manage without him now. My love for him is not the same as before.

Of course there's a slight sadness whenever I remembered what we had. We're very much happy and it's so sad we ended in a not so good way.

I don't have any contact with Jungkook now, I don't know where he is also. I haven't seen him for months and I didn't hear any news about him, not like I want to but of course I'm just curious sometimes.

In the past months, I've been so happy with myself.

Chaesoo and Jennie's always at my side too.

They always look after me, but not like before that it seemed like they're being force to be with me. They just called me from time to time now, except Jennie because we're almost living together.

She didn't leave me, even though I told her I'm completely fine now.She just said it's better to live with someone other than being alone.

We mostly stay at my unit in Korea because Leo and Luca are there. we sometimes visit her unit just to clean from time to time and watch movies.

We also do some night out now.Atleast once a month we're visiting bars to have few drinks and then sleep to the house where the bar's near. whenever we're near our building, we stay at Jennie's unit.

Yes, I am drinking. Not too many though,because it has been obvious to us that I really have a small alcohol tolerance. I usually ended being knocked out. Thankfully, they're always there to assist me and carry me. they're really my true friends.

We miraculously ended our first semester without any failing grade and I'm very happy for that. I know we're slacking sometimes, but they never been a bad influence to me. They guided me all through out and helped me.

So for the celebration of our successful semester, we decided to take vacations to our hometowns, and now we're currently here at my hometown in Thailand.

I'm very much excited to bring them here.They're my first girl best friends. I want my parents to meet them, so they will not worry too much about me because I have these wonderful girls around me.

On our third night here, I already had the courage to talked with my parents about my relationship with Jungkook and the reason why I broke up with him. my parents cried and also the three of us, except Jisoo unnie. I know she's sad but she's not really showy when it comes to her feelings.

I cried because I saw how my parents cried for me. I think it's good also that I took time before telling them the story, because if I did it when I'm still not ready, it will be more painful and biased.

After that night we acted normally again, it's actually lighter because I felt I lose some heavy burdens in my heart.

it's just felt less pain and more real when I'm telling it to other people. The more I tell my story, the less pain I feel and the more I accept the reality.It just goes the same for the past five months.

We're currently having our BBQ party now, just my parents and the girls. we have drinks, BBQs and other snacks.

The girls are drinking alcoholic drinks, while my parents are drinking wine, while me? they gave me a chocolate milk, not that I'm complaining. I love chocolate milk but I can't match it with this party vibes. but I have no choice so I'll just drink and enjoy it.