Run Away

3 a.m

You could sit here and think about your life and make plans with yourself but never go through with them. You could sit here and be scared to do anything or to excel in life goals. Many people don't do what the dream. Many people don't take the high road. Or live life.
I didn't want to be one of those people.
But things kept holding me back. He kept holding me back.

I lay there next to Asher. I studied his face. He was asleep but I could tell he was peaceful and happy
I didn't understand. How could a guy that could get whoever he wanted end up laying here with me? How could a guy that could get whatever he wanted end up having a good time with me even though he didn't get what he wanted?
There's things I didn't understand. But also things I didn't wanna understand. Things that were meant to e kept inside someone's mind that I really didn't even bother to know about.

"Mir?"

I flinched. He's been up?!

"Yes?" I said with hesitation.

"I...I..." He murmured.
He didn't finish.
He must talk In his sleep.

He what? Me what? He said I...he said Mir. What does he want? What did he wanna tell me?
I looked around his room.

There was a Bring me the Horizon poster, next to it was a Attila poster. Both good bands. Then Eminem, and drake, then Nirvanna.

Damn this kid had good taste in music. I chucked a little. Good taste in music that's all.

I started thinking about the world and the people in it.

Like us humans are a confusing and judgmental race. We lie, steal,cheat, beg, and devour the world. We hurt other because we are hurt. We take others lives as revenge. But yet we can be the most loving people on earth. We can care for one another and love one another. Feed one other, clothe one another. Be there. Yet we can turn each other's backs when we need one another the most. We think love is bullet proof till our lover shoots us.
We are society....we are the monsters we swore we would never become.

We're so vulnerable because we make ourselves that way. We make ourselves feel and yearn and crave affections that will soon not be there. Until at that right moment in time it all starts to make sense and click.
The universe collides. And everything is still. You see the person you will love forever. It's a beautiful....yet scary thing to love.

I saw my future once....I was so sure of it. I knew what I wanted and I had to go for it. But in the end my future began to fade before me. Soon becoming a distant dream. I was shot back to reality, waking up to my own faults and truths. Learning to never crave another.

Most people think that the human race is just bad news, filled with bad people.
It's not that we're bad. We all play our roles. It's like this is a little play. We're the puppets and god is the puppeteer.

We all have a role to fill and a place to be and a life to fulfill

My mind swarmed with thoughts and idea that tired me. And I soon began to doze off...with me in his arms.