Run Away

The big goodbye

And I thought as I saw him leave than it was all a game. He would be back soon. Everything would blow over in a day or that night, but no I was wrong once again. What happened is stuck in my head and plays it over and over again. It's like a sad movie that makes me cry every time I see it.
He snuck out of his house that night to come and see me. I saw him on the other side of my street. He walked towards me and I felt a small tear drip down my face as I saw him walk towards me.
"Hey Mir" he said while putting his head down. I was curious as to why he didn't say my full name 'Miranda', he always says my full name.
"Hi Ben " I said with a straight face.
"Look Mir before you get any ideas, we're not breaking up. I just wanted to see you before they sent me off. I know it's my fault. I'm a dumb fuck for letting it go this far. I don't wanna lose you. I love you too much to let that happen."
" I love you too. But no, your leaving. Your gonna find someone else and I don't wanna be around to see that happen. I don't want to see you come back and you dump me because you found someone else."
"Miranda I would not do that to you. I love you and I wouldn't dare hurt you like that"
"People say we aren't meant to be....I think we are. Do you think we are?"
After that question slipped from my mouth, he began to move closer to me and slowly put his hands around my waist and kissed my forehead. He started to run his nose from my forehead to my cheek to my neck. His baby blue eyes met my hazel eyes.
"We are meant to be. I mean that. We're meant to be. Your gonna be the girl I'm with forever."
It brought tears to my eyes hearing him say that we were meant to be. I slowly embraced him into a hug. At that one touch my eyes swelled up with tears and a waterfall began pouring out of my eyes.
He asked if we could cuddle on the grass.
Ben took off his shirt showing his v-line and his tan body and laid the shirt on the grass and told me to sit. I sat down and smiled at him. He held me in his arms and played with my hair. He started to cry which made me cry. I held him in my arms and started to tell him that everything would be ok and that I loved him.
My phone rang which totally interrupted our last night together mood. I answered it and I was told that my mom was coming home.
I told Ben and he got up and hugged me. He leaned in and put his lips on mine. The last kiss we would have in a year. This was our last kiss. I savered every moment. We kissed slowly and soft. He sent sensations through my whole body.
He put on his shoes and put back on his shirt.
While he was doing so I watched him. I was thinking about how much I loved this guy. And I'm gonna be nothing when he's gone. As he was putting on his shoes and looked at him and said softly while crying " I love you marshmallow. Please don't leave. You have to stay. Please!"
He looked up at me with sadness in his eyes "Miranda Johnson I love you so much. I have to leave. You know my parents, when they found out about us they weren't happy, when they saw my grades it made it worse, and now that I'm suspended. Well you know. Now I have to go live with family in Michigan. I don't want to and I would do anything to stop it from happening. But its already sorted it out. I have to go baby."
I looked at him with disappointment and sadness. For the fourth time that night I cried. Him leaving was something I couldn't handle. All our sweet romantic moments together, out intense moments, our sad I need you moments, just so much more.
"Please don't find someone else. Someone better, cooler, nicer, sweeter, cuter, and just everything better than me"
He stood up and looked me in the eyes. "I love you princess. No one will ever be better than you. Your perfect. Your my world."
"But without you I'll be nothing babe. You don't understand. Your bae and bae will always be bae. "
"Your my bae. Your always gonna be bae."
I blushed and hugged him and made sure to hold him tight. I laid my head on his chest and said " remember when it was our one month and we were cuddling and you took the flower that you gave me and picked it up and asked me to marry you and I said yes. Well are we still married?"
"Of course we're still married. I promise."
We did our promise hand shake. We wrapped our pinkies together and he kissed his right hand and I kissed my right hand. Then we wrapped our left pinkies together and he kissed his left hand and I kissed mine.
He had to go because my mom would be home soon.
He hugged me and told me he loved me. Then he grabbed his bike and started to walk away and then looked at me and said "one more hug before I leave princess?"
I ran up to him, jumped on him, and wrapped my legs around his waist. We hugged for a few minutes. We both started to cry, but we said I love you.
He put me down and said he loved me and that he would miss me.
I stood at the beginning of my drive way and I watched him walk away for the last time. I cried and cried.
I wouldn't see him for a year, but then again who knows if he was ever coming back.