Run Away

You'll Want Me

I looked at the texts that Asher had sent me. He was confusing. He was stubborn. He was hardheaded. He didn't take no for an answer. He kept texting me. Given yes I thought it was funny how in one fall he wasn't able to leave me alone. He had balls. I could tell you that, he saw an opening to try to make me yearn for him. He licked the chocolate off of my neck. I mean who does that the day you meet someone. Obviously that ladies man does.

My mind went to another place. What if he was just another guy that would make you fall for him and then leave because he got what he wanted? What if he was just another guy that would make you crave him and drop you like you meant nothing?  You see, most of the people I had dated were like this. Except Caleb and Ben. Yes Caleb had is faults and flaws and so did Ben. But didn't we all? It was hard to get over what Caleb had doone. He hurt me. But I stilled stayed because I believed he would be better and he would stop cheating and hurting me. But he didn't. So the third time he cheated, I was done for. My heart was broken and mistreated, I didn't want to leave him but for my sanity and the health of my mind I haad to. Nothing could hurt worse than being betrayed like that. It sucked.  Once I came back to reality, I could feel him starring at me. I looked to my side and he looked right back at me wiith anger.

" Hey are you ok?" I stuttered.

He looked at me, he looked hurt, I knew that look. " Why Miranda? Why couldn't you have just yelled at him? Why did you give him your number?"

" Caleb he got off of me free willingy. I thought he had lost his phone. I was tryinggg to help. It was nothing. We're not together, stop worrying about me. I'm not your problem or your concern."

He didn't look at me, he looked straight ahead, focusing on the road. I felt bad. Here I was, siting here feeling bad again. I was stupid to pitty him! Look what he does! He manipulates me and makes me feel bad. But I just..he just. Ugh! I need a nap or ice cream or like a anxiety pill or a zanax. This isn't what life was supposed to be like. He left this morning and I'm already falling apart. I couldn't do it. It wasn't ready for him to leave. It waasn't fair. Nothing was.

We finally got to Calebs house after a 15 minute drive with the silent treatment. Asher was standing in the driveway. We got out and Caleb and Asher did there little bro fist hug thing. He looked at me when they were done and smiled. He attemped to embrace me in a hug but instead I stuck my hand out for him to shake it. He smiled. Probably thinking some dirty thought like your right. Our bodies will be together soon enough. Or some bullshit like that.This guy was overly sexual and weird and just a total dick. But then again I could be the rudest erson ever if i showed my real feelings, I'm weird, and if I wanted to I could be over sexual.

Caleb led us into his house. Caleb first, me second, and Asher last. I felt a hand on my waist " Don't fight it. You'll want me sooner or later."