Run Away

Negative Doings

NO! You can't just leave me. You can't just dump me like that. We did so much together and your gonna forget it like it meant nothing!? I love you too much to let you leave. Please, lets talk baby. Come here...but...I love you.

"Wake up..wake up ...Wake the fuck up Miranda!" I heard in my ear. I drowsly looked up and saw Katy, my best friend.

'What do you want dude?" I asked putting my head back down on the desk.

"We're fifteen minutes into first period. When you did't show up I knew that you were one of two places, those two places were either here or at the field Ben and you used to go for peace and quaility time together."

'Well you've established I'm here. Now what?"

"We need to go to first period Mir. But you look like you've been sleeping for a week, we're going to the bathroom"

We walked out of Pod 6 and made our way to the bathroom, we walked in and of course Ben's jealous admirers were there. They looked at me and smirked and walked over to me.

"Well if it isn't little Miranda, Ben's littel toy." one of them cackled.

I rolled my eyes at this, first off I was a lot taller then them and second off I have respect for myself, I would never be someones toy. If your gonna insult me, do it properly by making sure the insults are true. I pushed my way through them and went to the sink and began to put my hair in a 'I dont care today" bun. They glared at me angryily because I hadn't responded to their comment.

I looked at them and said 'Awe, the populars are mad because I didn't give them the attention they wanted. Look I'm not playing games today, save that crao you call insults for me latter, ok? Thanks"

"It's not crap if it's true. Besides.. don't you understand that he'll be there for the rest of the school year? Plenty of girls in Michigan"\

"Doubt he would cheat to be honest. You only want me to end things with him so when he gets back fake little liars like you might actually have a chance. I don't have time for your bull. Bye now" I said and looked at Katy to let her know I was leaving this jealousy fest. I worked my way to the bathroom door and walked out. On my way out I bumped into a stressingly familair face. Caleb Robinson. The basketball teams precious little gold mine. I looked him up and down and laughed as to why he was standing outside the girls bathroom. Talk about perverted. I looked at him in curiousty, but didn't bother asking him what the hell he was doing because honeslty I didn't even care. It was first period and I've already had enough today. I went to go walk away but then an arm grabbed me. Calebs arm, of course. Since I dumped his unfaithful, unloyal, unappreciative butt back in 8th grade, he hasn't left me alone since.

'Hey Mir, I heard about Ben. I'm sorry" he said with a smirk.

I laughed 'Your sorry? Wow, hard to believe that when you tried so hard to get him to dump me because you didn't like me being with anyone else besides you"

"Your right, I'm not sorry. Hell, I couldn't even fake a straight face while saying it. But ummm, now since you two are over, do you wanna skip and go grab something to eat and just talk?"

'Talk? With you? Gosh, I don't know...it sounds... incredibally...boring"

"Oh come on! It won't be. Seriously, we'll eat, we'll talk, and I won't try anything unless you do" he bit his lip and flashed it puppy dog brown eyes.

I didn't fall for that trick anymore, but I thought what the hell? Free food, company that is slighty less annoying and I can be taken wherever I want for the whole day. It's only 7:30...

'Fine..don't try anything or I will karate chop your lame ass in half Robinson" I smiled.

He laughed at me and said 'Ladies first" and pointed to the hall way door. I bowed and walked in front of him. I slid past the doors and walked outside to fresh air. I breathed it all in. I suddendly felt free...but not free of my haunting thoughts. My mind kept taking me back to the night before, to the part where I saw him walk away for the last time. That was the hardest part. Yes, knowing he left this morning sucked. Yes, knowing I wouldn't see him for so long sucked. Yes, not knowing the next time we would talk sucked. But the worst part was watching him walk away for the last time was the most hurting part. When he walked away that last time, then I knew it was all real. Nothing was goinf to change. Nothing. This was it and I couldn't do anything to change that. It hurt like hell. It was like my heart dropped from my chest and was set on fire. Everything changed in a few hours. I stood there thinking, Caleb clapped in my face to try and get my attention. I snapped out of my thinking faze and put on a fake smile for him.

I walked to his car, he had his license. He was sixteen. He got held back in 7th grade, so he was able to drive before me. I eyed the car. It was the same one that he drove last year, that we always drove in when we were dating. I was absolutely in love with this car. It was a Dodge Charger. My dream car. Sleak, black, and badass. I smiled at this car. I couldn't tell you how many times we took this car out for racing at night. It was just a beautiful piece of machinery. I opened the passenger door and sat in the seat. I grabbed the input plug that was next to the radio and plugged my phone into it. I put on Tuesday ( ft. Drake) by I LOVE MAKONNEN. Caleb hopped in and smirked at the song that was playing. He pulled out of the parking lot and drove off of school property. He listened to me sing along to the song and kept looking at me which made me laugh. I starred out the window and thought of Ben. We loved music. We always listened to it. We did everything together. Everything. And now thats gone.

"I wanna take you somewhere Mir" Caleb said and made a right turn taking us out of town.

"Ok?" I looked at him curiously. I studied his face. He was singing along to the songs that were playing and smiled when he noticed I was starring at him.

'Look, I know I'm tempting and all, but save it for later." he stated and winked at me.

I laughed. "Nothing will happen later smartass".

We made a left turn and parked on the side of the street. I recognized this place. We used to hang out here all the time. This was our spot. Our favorite spot. We spent so many nights here. This is also where I found out he cheated and dumped him. The fight was ugly, loud, and unforgettable.

"Why are we here?" I asked him, I was starting to get mad. I was supposed to be eating breakfast...not spending my time in this damn abandoned building. He got out of the car and walked into the building. I stayed in the car and closed my eyes and breathed in and out and tried to calm myself down. The flashbacks came back...him walking away. I hated it. It played over and over like a broken record. It hurt my head and my heart. It hurt that my mind decided to replay that one moemnt specifically. I heard the car door open and I looked at him. I smiled and then realized it wasn't him..not the him I wanted or need for that matter. It was Caleb..sadly. He looked at me and smiled.

"So I thought you might want this" he said while handing me a box. I eyed him curiously and carefully opening the box. It was full of my past. A past I rather not get into. It had pictures of me last year drinking and smoking. I was over all that. I shoved the box into his chest and got out of the car. He got out as well.

"What the hell Caleb!!? Why would I want those?? I told you I was done with that."

"You were depressed when you did these things Mir. Your depressed again and I thought you might wanna...relive your past.."

"My past? My past is my past. These pictures shouldn't even excist anymore!" he reached into his pocket and pulled out something I haven't seen in a long time. My lighter. I carried it around all the time...I never left without it. It was baby.

"Please Miranda...just once?" he looked at him and held the lighter out.

I hesistated but took it anyway. "Once Caleb...just once".

He took out his cigeratte and handed it to me. I took a deep breathe and put it in my mouth and lit it. It's not like I promised anyone that I would stop. Ben smoked, Katy smoked, Dakota smoked. We all did. But during the summer I ended up having too much to drink and I smoked half a pack. I did whatever it took to take the pain away. I did more besides drinking and smoking. Ben told me everything that I couldn't remember...it was terrrifying. I took drags here and there with him but not all the time.

I breathed the smoke in and exhaled it out, I looked up to the sun and said "this ones for you babe".